Hi
So, I'm not feeling very...happy today. As always, when I'm sad I do self portraits of me crying. Why? I don't know. I like to see the tears since I can't cry in real life. All life being teach to hide the feelings and now I can't cry or laugh. Someone tells a joke and my fist reaction is trying to hide it.
Aaaahhh
I'm tired. I found a wonderful person on Twitter. LifeBelin. She's here on Wattpad and she writes very well. She's so sweet and makes me feel that we're already friends. But I don't think we are. I don't feel like I deserve that kind of quick friendship.
I wish that I could be normal sometimes. Wanting to spend time with friends, happily speak with the family like my friends do, be happy.
Or be like Retrodile and have the courage to share my depressive drawings, but how can I do that when all of them are traced?! I can't think properly when I'm sad, but I just wanna draw so bad that I copy other people drawings.
But I wanna share them. I wanna share them so bad as I want to share any other drawing. Maybe I could start here. I wanted to share on twitter so LifeBelin could see. Why? Maybe I want to hear her sweet words, but I don't know her. I can't make that to her.
I can't make that to anyone.
No one need to know what I'm going through. Uugghh, saying this makes me sick.
I need help
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Story Times
RandomHello! This is just a book where I write my life experiences, thoughts and emotions because, since I have mental issues, it was adviced to me to write everything and for me there isn't better place then wattpad to do it.
