Negirau Atashinchi (Bleach Fanfic)

Night Attacks

Karin sat at her desk and tapped the pencil on the desk as she tried ton concentrate on her homework. Her mind kept drifting off to think about other things and she finally found herself leaning on her arm with her cheek resting on the palm of her hand. "I still can't place that feeling I got from Toshiro. It's not a feeling I'd expect him of all people to be feelings."

"Perhaps that is why you can't identify the feeling. You know what the feeling is all to well but because it is not a feeling you expect him of all people to feel you find yourself unable to place it." The voice in her head spoke up. "Speaking of which, you found yourself worried about his safety and his well being. You like him, don't you?"

The small female found herself blinking a couple of times. "You're my thoughts and my feelings so you should very well know how I feel about Toshiro. I've got other things to worry about rather then whether I should date him. Like worrying about the fact he almost got himself killed and the fact he's tried butting in on the situation with those girls."

"You shouldn't let those girls bully you. You should tell an adult."

"If I ignore them then they will just go away. I don't even understand why they are even targeting me. And no, don't go into the idea it is because I am finally wearing a skirt. I'm not the type of girl any of the guys would go gaga over." Karin paused. "You know, it is possible not to be able to get a date and not get a lesbian."

"But if you were to try and date a guy who would you try dating."

"Now, that is a weird question. I used to not used to thinking of this stuff with my conscience before I became a substitute shinigami, so what is up with that?"

"I may be very aware of what your thoughts are, but I am not your conscience. Answer my question though despite the fact I know the answer."

Karin found herself pausing and setting down the pencil. "I don't like the idea of someone else running around in my head. It is bad enough that I am able to see ghosts."

"Except I've always been there. You just haven't been able to hear me."

"Ahh... so I've had a psychosis this whole time."

"No... I'm not a psychosis. It is rather hard to explain. Since you wish for me to stop speaking I will allow you to be."

Karin let out a deep sigh before getting up and changing into her nightclothes and collapsing onto the bed and turning off the light next to her bed. The voice didn't speak to her anymore, but she couldn't help but think about the question the voice had asked. "I've never put much thought into what kind of guy I would want to date, but then I've never wanted to end up like those girls gossiping and turning a guy into an object."

The female turned over onto her back and closed her eyes. "None of the guys I know I would want to be in a long term relationship with because their attitudes stink and they are perverts. Well, there is Toshiro. He's the kind of guy any girl would want to date." The dark haired teen placed a hand on her forehead. "And how's that not objectifying him, me thinking about how cute and perfect he is. Hypocrite."

She soon found herself drifting off to sleep. After a few hours her eyes suddenly jolted open and she felt a heavy weight on her chest and she found herself taking a deep breath. She turned to look at the clock and saw that it was almost three in the morning. Carefully she got up and noticed that Yuzu was in bed asleep. She felt around for spiritual pressure, only to find herself realizing she couldn't feel Toshiro's.