New things- Monoshin

Tears- lots of them

Monoma's POV

We sat down in class, and I barely paid attention. All I remember is looking out the window, and thinking about the new kid. Suddenly a bell snapped me out of my thoughts, and people started getting up to go back to the dorms. I look down and saw a piece of paper on my desk. It was a note saying to see Vlad King after class. I shoved my homework and the note into my backpack, and sat down waiting for everyone to leave. I looked over, and noticed Shinsou didn't get up yet either. He had a note in his hand, and was gazing at the floor unamused.

Once everyone had shuffled their way out of the classroom, I got up and walked over to Vlad King. Shinsou walked over and stood beside me. What is he doing here? Did Vlad King ask to see him to? Vlad King cleared his throat, and started speaking.

"Ok, so you're probably both wondering why I asked to see you."

"Uh obviously" Shinsou said looking annoyed

"Watch the attitude, boy. Anyways since you're new, I decided to have someone help you settle into your new dorm. You sit by Monoma, so I assume you already know him well enough, and I saw you sitting with him at lunch."

"One, I wasn't sitting there willingly. I was dragged by some orange haired girl. Two, I know nothing about him other than his name. He can barely talk to me." Shinsou replied rolling his eyes.

I just stood there in silence, because to be honest I didn't even know what to say. And even if I wanted to say something, he was right, I can barely talk to him. For some reason. How was I supposed to help him settle in if my mouth wouldn't open, and my voice would disappear every time he was around. I have to get over whatever spell he has me under.

"Well I don't care, figure it out. Shinsou your dorm is to the left of Monoma's, so Monoma you can show him the way to his new dorm. That's all. Make sure you do your homework and lose the attitude and we won't have a problem." Vlad King said as he walked out of the room.

I just stood there silent. My feet wouldn't move, and I physically jumped when Shinsou started talking again.

"Look, I don't know what your problem is, but Vlad King's annoying so just help me with my dorm or whatever,"

I nodded slowly, and he picked up his backpack and started walking. I followed behind him closely- but not too closely until we made it to the dorms. Without a word, I went up to my dorm, and pointed at Shinsou's dorm assuming he followed me up the stairs. He took his key out of his pocket, and opened the door. There was a bunch of boxes all over the floor.

"Looks like we got our work cut out for us." Shinsou said as he started to enter the room.

He stopped, looked back to me, realized I wasn't moving, rolled his eyes, and grabbed my wrist pulling me into his dorm. I gasped at the sudden contact, and felt my heart start beating a mile a second. What is happening to me? Once we were both in his room, he let go, and locked the door. For some reason I wished he didn't let go. He motioned for me to unpack boxes, and started unpacking stuff also.

I think he tried to start a conversation, but my heart was beating too fast to actually hear it. It was like I couldn't hear anything but my heart thumping loudly in my ears. I wondered what was wrong with with me, when I finally snapped out of my thoughts to look up at Shinsou. I examined him once again, and for some reason I loved everything about him. His hair, his tired yet inviting eyes, his smirk, his teasing laugh, even his annoying unamused face. I barely even knew him, but damn he's cute.

What? Why did I just think that? He's not cute. That's not a thought I'm allowed to have. I've never thought that about anyone. What is going on. I guess I was staring for way too long, because Shinsou suddenly looked up at me to look me straight in the eye. I turned away really quickly to try and pretend I wasn't looking at him, but he definitely saw me.

"You know, you're really weird. Can you stop staring at me like that? It's kind of creeping me out."

He saw me. He thought I was weird. He thought I was creepy. Why did I care? But it hurt. So fucking bad. I don't know why, but my heart dropped to my stomach, and my eyes started watering. I could feel my face heating up, and Shinsou's harsh glare turn into a softer concerned one. I quickly hid my face with my hands, and bolted out of the room. I didn't look back, I didn't say goodbye, I just ran into my dorm, and slammed the door shut. I locked it, and face planted onto my pillow.

I cried, and cried, and cried some more. My pillow was soaked, and it was getting hard to breathe, but I just wanted the pillow to muffle my sobs. What would Shinsou think if he heard me crying? That I was some pathetic whiny baby? I shouldn't be crying right now. I don't even know why it hurts so much knowing that he probably thinks I'm some weird creepy kid. He probably hates me. Why wouldn't he? I can't say a word to him, so he probably thinks I'm ignoring him. I couldn't take the lack of air anymore, so I sat up to finally take in a few deep breaths. I tried to calm down, but the tears kept coming faster than I could wipe them away.

I don't even remember the last time I cried this much. And over what? I don't even know. I had been crying for hours now, and I was so ashamed of myself already. I got up and walked over to my bathroom to see how much of a mess I look. My eyes were red, my cheeks were hot, reddened, and covered in fresh tears, since for some reason seeing myself like this made me cry more. My hair was a huge mess, my nose looks like I have the flu, and my ears look like I just came back from Antarctica. My eyebrows were also permanently glued in a sad position for no apparent reason.

I walked back over to my bed, and didn't even bother doing my homework. I just laid in my bed crying until I fell asleep.

Beep Beep Beep

My alarm rang, and I slowly checked the time. It was 6am and I turned off my alarm. I got up, and walked over to get ready for the day. I brushed my teeth, and threw on my uniform. I didn't even bother looking in the mirror, because I didn't want to upset myself again. I walked downstairs to where everyone was eating breakfast, and sat down.

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