New things- Monoshin

What now?

Monoma's POV

Now that I had figured out these new found feelings. What now? What do I do with this? I'm obviously not gonna tell him. I'm just gonna have to suck it up, and deal with it by myself. What if I start acting weird around him unconsciously. Oh my God, what if he notices? What if everyone else notices? This is too much for me... I got up, and got ready like usual, and decided to get to school on time. I focused on making sure I didn't look like a hot mess coming to class today even though I've been panicking all morning. I ran out of the dorms, and raced to school hoping not to see anyone on the way when I bumped into a certain tired looking guy.

"Watch where your go- Oh, hey Monoma."

"Uh h-hi"

"What's the rush?"

"N-nothing just wanted to get to school on time."

"Oh, ok. Walk with me?"

This is exactly what I was trying to avoid. But I can't say no...That would be rude.

"Sure."

We walked to school in silence, occasionally talking about random stuff, but neither of us brought up anything about yesterday. If he didn't bring it up, I don't have to. Then suddenly we made it to class, and he turned to look at me before opening the door.

"Do you wanna go somewhere with me again?"

Oh my God. He wants to hang out? Again? I can't breathe right now.

"Uhhh, Monoma?"

Oh my God, the way he says my name is so- Hold on snap out of it. Shinsou. Just. Asked. Me. Out. Well technically he just asked me to go somewhere, so that's not really asking me out but...

"Monoma? You there?"

Oh shit. ANSWER HIM.

"Uh, yeah sorry I spaced out. Where do you wanna go?"

"Well as you can see I'm pretty tired, so we should go to some coffee shop after school."

"Oh, sure."

He opens the door, and we both walk in. I sit down at my seat, and stare out the window. At some point Kendo walks in, and walks over to me looking angrier than I've ever seen her. Her hands were balled up in fists, and she was giving me a horrifying death stare. Her glare softened as she approached my table, and she smiled. But not a happy smile. A bone chilling smile. Through gritted teeth she spoke with a voice you would hear from a horror movie.

"Monoma. We talk at lunch."

Her smile turns into another death stare.

"Or else."

Then she walks to her seat, and sits down like she didn't just threaten me. Damn, there really is no escaping her. Looks like I can't skip lunch again. Oh well, I was bound to face her sometime. I pretty much zone out until the bell rings for lunch, and I get up quickly hoping for an escape. Kendo glares at me, and I sigh walking to the cafeteria. I sit down at my usual spot, and wait for all hell to break loose. Kendo comes in, and spots me her eyes narrowing. She walks over, and drags me to a secluded corner out of earshot.

"Explain. Now."

"Explain what?"

"Don't play dumb with me."

"You're the one that dragged me over here, shouldn't you be doing the talking?"

"Are you kidding me?"

"I told you I was fine."

"Bullshit! You're obviously not fucking fine"

"Maybe I wasn't then, but I am now. Look I was just going through a lot of emotions that I couldn't handle, but I'm fine now."

"That's just it. I'm your best friend, yet you were going through all this, and didn't tell me. And what's up with you and Shinsou? I thought you hated him. Are y'all friends now or something? You're always together. Replacing me already?"

"No Kendo, it's just- I-I don't know where to start."

"Let's start with the truth? What happened to you? What emotions couldn't you handle?"

"The ones I felt for Shinsou!" I blurted out, maybe a bit too loud, because I saw a few nearby heads turn.

"Wait...Do you...like Shinsou?"

"Uhhh..."

"OH MY GOD, YOU DO!!!!"

"Shhhhhh, keep your voice down. The whole school doesn't need to know."

"Sorry, sorry, I'm just so excited!"

"Yeah well it's nothing to be excited about, I haven't told him, and I'm not planning on it."

"Awwww why not?"

"Because we just started being friends, and I don't wanna ruin that."

"Who said that's gonna ruin anything?"

"Common sense. I don't even know if he likes guys. Hell, I didn't even know I liked guys."

"Well it's a good day to have a wingwoman best friend."

"It would be if my Wingwoman best friend wasn't you."

"Harsh...I can work with that."

"Ugh, can we please go back so I can eat lunch. I haven't eaten lunch in two days."

"Uh?"

"Don't ask. Just know it has to do with Shinsou."

"Ah, ok. Let's go."

We walked back to the table, and while I was getting swarmed with questions about my whereabouts during lunch yesterday and my sudden outburst of emotion during class, I still got to enjoy my food. I pretty much ignored everyone, and let Kendo handle it for me. Shinsou was quiet, and would occasionally glance up to my direction, and then look back down. Now who has a staring problem? When lunch ended I pretty much tuned out the rest of the day being excited to finally meet up with Shinsou. Right after the bell rang for us to leave Vlad king pulled me aside to clean his Whiteboard in exchange for me not doing my homework. Oh That's what I agreed to. After I was done, I walked to my dorm to quickly change out of my uniform so I could go to get coffee with Shinsou.

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