Time Is Not On Our Side - Bradley Simpson

Chapter 25: He ruined my life

Lily's POV:

You probably want to know what happened right after Ethan shot Brad. Well I would like to know too

I would have liked to avenge my best friend. I would have liked to run to Ethan to take his gun and shoot him in the head. But instead I passed out.

To explain what happened, I was on my knees screaming at the sight of my best friend's lifeless body. I remember seeing Ethan point his gun at me and when I got up to run away, I heard a shot and it was the black hole.

To be honest, I don't know if I'm dead, if I'm in a coma, if I'm still alive. All I know is that I no longer want to live in this world now that Brad is no longer part of it. Many people will find me selfish because I still have a lot of people who like me and I should not let them down. But try to understand me, I lost the love of my life. I know I would never find someone like Brad. I would never love anyone as much as I love Brad because my love for him has been built up gradually over the past 15 years and I only want him, no one else.

Besides, I don't want to live a life full of regrets. Why has life not left us more time? Why did Ethan separate us when Brad had admitted to me his feelings since ten little minutes?

I don't want to live with the kiss he gave me in the room where we had just been tortured as the only memory of our love.

Unfortunately, I was forced to come back to reality. I felt that I was being gently shaken but I didn't want to open my eyes. I didn't want to wake up because it meant giving up on Brad forever.

But after several seconds, I woke up despite myself. My eyes opened slowly and I hardly saw a male figure close to me.

"Brad? I whispered, still having trouble opening my eyes fully. Brad is that you ...?

- No Lily ... I heard and recognized James' voice. I'm sorry but it's only me ... He answered me and I stared at him before getting up slightly to sit. I had a very bad headache.

- Where's Brad? I asked, starting to panic as James lowered his head. James, tell me where Brad is ... I repeated and he started looking towards a point far away. I followed his gaze before I saw doctors all around my best friend. Tears appeared in the corners of my eyes. I have to go see him. I said getting up quickly but James grabbed my hand

- They don't want us to approach ... He told me while I was panicking

- Let go of me ! I want to see him. I screamed, feeling that I was completely going crazy

- Lily calm down ... He said, gripping me more tightly and pressing me against him. I kept screaming before hitting my fists against his chest. Shhhh, it's gonna be fine ... He whispered in my ear before hugging me tightly. His soft voice gradually calmed me

- What am I going to do without him ... I snuggled up to James' chest before clutching his t-shirt in my hands.

- I don't know Lily... He whispered, his voice trembling. My tears had soaked James' t-shirt. He couldn't calm me down as well as Brad did, but I was trying to take advantage of the comfort he gave me.

- Lily, you're alive! I heard screams behind me. I gently released myself from James' grip to turn around and see Tristan and Connor. They hugged me tightly before Tristan put his jacket on my shoulders because I was shivering

- The doctors will be here soon to take care of you. Tristan told me

- Why... ? I'm not the one who needs a doctor ... I whispered, lowering my head.