LONG JOURNEY 📌 hongjoong x seonghwa

Chapter 8

"Did you know what you've done?" Seonghwa ask. He take one thin branch and start sketching some images that even himself cant notice.

"Why? What ive done?"
"You know you have been ignoring me for these past few days?"
"Ouh-"
"Is that is?"

Seonghwa left a sighed. He actually hurt because of what Hongjoong did to him. Its not like a feelings the usual should have, isnt it? Thats why he become more confius with himself. He walk and sit on the swing and start swinging back and forth, patiently waiting Hongjoong to talk with him back.

"I-, im not sure why too.." Hongjoong said. After he break a silence between both of them. How should he told Hwa that the reasons why he behaving like that is because of he saw Hwa had video call with this one guys almost everyday at least once. Hwa would not just talk casually with the guy but he also giving each other flirty words

I fancy you
Ouh-hiy, is it become im pretty?
Yes, im happy

Sometimes they would change words like that and that he felt uncomfortable with it. He also dont know why he felt like that, its like he's been playing with his own emotions, not finding the right answer. That is why he think avoiding Hwa would fix his problems.

"Do you.. feel uncomfortable with me?" Hwa try to start a conversation.

"No, of course not. Its not about that"
"If so?"
"I dont know how to say this, it doesn't matter anyway. I should be okay"

"You know im hurting? The fact that you casually talk to the boys like you had nothing happened and then when it comes to me, im like a thin-paper. Pointlees. I go ask Wooyoung, Yunho and Mingi did you have any problems until you need some time but they all said you are fine. Hongjoong-ah, if you really uncomfortable with me, we can discuss with the whole team and i change bear the ideas of changing the room partner."

Hongjoong just stared at him, he look at Hwa who start shaking as he wait for his answer. The fact that Hwa actually told what he felt, he look at Hwa's eyes and gaze at it. As if he want to know more, behind that pure eyes, he felt warmth. Like a person he always want to find.

"Im sorry, to make you feel like that. I thought im sorting this by myself"

"What the point of saying sorry? Did you do anything wrong? What are sorting?

"Its my feelings"
"What's wrong with it?"
"Would you be mad if i said this things?"
"You better has a good excuses"

Hwa staring at him with his frown eyebrow. He stop swinging and paid attention to him, he is feeling anxious or more, he is afraid that Hongjoong might said the words that really can hurt him.

"Its that day, when i finished my first track. I was so happy, wanting to find you and tell you everything. But then, i saw that you was in video call with this one guy, like i want to ask but i just brushed it off. But, day by day i saw both of you chat with each other quite frequently. Sometimes teasing and compliment each other. I guess its just my feelings messing up, that is why im avoiding you"

While Hongjoong explained one by one, Hwa just stare at Hongjoong who just finished talking and bow his head down. He left a sighed, and not looking at Hwa. Hwa blink his eyes a couple of time and then he take a small stone and throw to him. Trying to get his attention to him.

"Hongjoong-ah, you can stop being jealous.. im not dating anyone"