Feeling's Palette

♡ Prologue ♡

XYRA'S POV ✩

It was a peaceful Sunday morning, I woke up early to see my favorite part of the day, The Sunrise. For me, it means that every sun rising is a new hope to cope.

It was exactly 5:00 in the morning and now I'm sitting on the balcony of my mother's hospital room, watching the sun come up. This gives me new hope that my mom will, at long last, have a heart donor on this day.

I enjoyed a cup of my favorite hot chocolate while munching on a freshly baked croissant, which was the ideal breakfast pair for me. Hay! So masarap!

 I saw the sliding door open and there she came, Kia, one of my dearest best friends, came over to me with hopeful eyes and a simple grin plastered on her lips. I suddenly stopped chewing.

"Good morning, besh " she greeted.

"Hello besh, good morning "As a gesture of our sisterhood, I got up, gave her a hug, and we did our "beso thing".

"I am really sorry, Xyra. I know it's way too early to say this, but I haven't found a heart donor for tita Lauren, mukhang malabo-" I interrupted her before she was able to continue her word, I didn't want to hear what she had to say after that.

"It's okay Kia, you don't have to be sorry. Who knows? baka mamaya may dumating na" She nodded in response, and I gave her a reassuring smile.

"Oh, by the way, Cady texted me a while ago, sabi niya hindi raw muna siya makakapunta dito dahil alam mo na....  and Avee seemed struggling too...ganoon din si Piel..."

"Yun nga eh, but don't worry, It's okay! sa totoo lang I'm worried about those 3, nagi-guilty nga ako dahil hindi ko na sila masyadong nasasamahan, you know...." I looked down and sighed heavily.

Sa totoo lang we were all facing hardships right now, si Kia lang itong medyo chill dahil masyado niya na daw kaming pinag-alala noon kaya ayaw niya na muna itong dagdagan. She is more than willing to help us, especially my mom, and I won't deny na kailangan ko talaga ng karamay sa mga oras na ito.

"Kahit pa hindi mo sila/kami masamahan, ayos lang, hindi naman mababawasan ang pagka-bff natin dahil doon eh" she said.

"Even though we're not on each other's company right now, what matters is that nandito pa rin tayo para suportahan ang isa't-isa sa kahit ano mang paraan" she added and gave me her calming smile. 

She's right.

We were having a chit-chat about some things and our social life updates nang bigla namang napunta ang usapan sa isang unexpected topic. Oh God, it made me feel so freaking awkward.

"By the way, Royce graduated a few months ago, and last month, I heard, they took their licensure exams" She smirked at me and measured my reaction to whom she had mentioned  in front of me! and to disguise my emotion, I looked away.

I knew all about his graduation stuff (syempre naririnig ko sa mga usap-usapan no?  baka isipin niyong ini-stalk ko siya?  Hmm)  but I didn't expect that my bestfriend would tell me about it after a long time of not bringing up topics about him , siguro ay nasanay na rin sila at gusto nalang ako tulungang mag "move on".

I didn't know what to feel when I heard his name, to be honest, naguguluhan ako sa nararamdaman ko. Siguro ay galit , takot, at lungkot lang iyon or something else? I'm not sure. 

"I already knew that" sabi ko sabay taray. She acted like she was shocked at tinaasan pa ako ng kilay.

"Really? You already knew? " she teased me.