I can't say I regret saving district 13, and Katniss, but right now I wish I could take back the words I said. Even if it was just for a moment...just so the pain would stop.
Even when they're not beating, burning, drowning or experiment ting on me, the pain still lingers.
And the worst part is I don't understand why it hurts so much.
Why my heart hurts.
The door slides open once more, but I barely notice. I dont even pay attention to what the peacekeepers are saying. I don't even see the syringes they're holding. That is until they inject me with them.
At first the liquid feel cold and smooth, gliding through my veins. I allow myself to relax embracing whatever sleep serum they've given me.
But then my veins are set slight, every nerve in my body screams at me, my body shaking violently as the poison restricts my heart beat. I scream out. Tugging fiercly at my restraints, which helps clear my thoughts and distract me from the pain.
The peacekeepers gufaw and laugh. Yelling obscenities at me, as though it gives them a thrill. I scream back at them, pleading with them to let me go.
Then they disappear leaving my head spinning in agony. There's something familiar about the pain...trackerjacker venom.
I dig my wirsts in deeper to my restraints.
Yes, trackerjackers.
I'm suddenly transported back into the areana, laying drowsily beside the careers. When bang! The nest slams into the ground bursting open almost like a bomb.
My body begins to shake even more at the thought, every muscle in my body tensing up.
Katniss cut the nest down.
Images are projected on the wall in front of me. Images of Katniss killing people. Killing children. Lying to me. Hurting me. Kissing gale. Attacking a little girl called Rue. Killing her over some supplies. Tracking me down when I was hurt. Poisoning me. Running away. Raising her bow to shoot me when the rules were revoced. Pretending to love me. Ignoring me. Sending me to be tortured.
Tears burn in my eyes as I live through every moment. The pain in my heart overpowering the pain caused by the venom.
This is Katniss Everdeen?
This is the girl I loved?
Before I lose consciousness and fall back into my dark nightmares I catch a glimpse of her killing my father. Killing him because he doesn't know where I am.
I'm suddenly filled with rage. I want to stop her. But I'm too weak.
As my eyes close, her voice rings out. "I will find you, Peeta Mellark. And when I do. I will kill you!"
No, I think to myself, no you won't.
