DAMON (Oneshots) 🏳️‍🌈

A CALM NIGHT FOR SUICIDE 😥

Hey I know it has been a long time since I have updated and I'm really sorry about that I just didn't feel like writing but I went through one of my one shot ideas and I decided to continue this one.

*WARNING SUICIDAL THOUGHTS*

If you are sensible to this type of content please leave and if you are thinking of committing this mistake please call suicide hotline.

Simon's POV

I should be happy for him, that's what I've always wanted for him to find someone who would love him for the sunshine that he is and for the genuine human being that he is, but I can't help but feel a deep hollow within me as I think about my mistake.

I could of had him, I could be happy in his arms but I was too late, I let my mind think I loved Lauren but we all know the truth hurts and to find out she played me like I was a puppet and I never noticed it, people warned me that she was here for my money and my fame but I didn't listen I thought they were all wrong...

Turns out I was wrong and here I am sitting in a couch watching the man that has truly loved me for who I am getting ready to marry someone else, I regret saying yes but if I hadn't I would only see the love of my life with a sad face, so I guess it's better to just suffer through this evening and hope that once this is finished I can leave in peace.

I tried to act like everything was fine that I was happy for him but I couldn't and now seeing his face looking at me waiting for an answer I could only wonder what did I do to God to deserve such a pitiful life.

"I'm happy for you truly you deserve her and I hope you will be happy cause that's the only thing I have wished in my life to see you happy, and now I know you are" I said in a tone that explains the opposite of what I just said.

I watched is eyes look through mine trying to find a light in the darkness of my soul, but it a lost research I know I'm hopeless.

Turning around I walked towards the door knowing I was too late to tell him how much he means to me that if I could notice it sooner and give him the answer he always hoped for, I would but it's too late now.

Opening the door I turned to see his beautiful brown eyes that once looked at me with so much happiness now filled with concern and sadness, I know I messed up that day when he confessed to me, but at that time I didn't want too believe so I avoided his question and left muttering a single goodbye to someone that today means so much more then my own life to me.

"I'm sorry..."I said feeling my eyesight blurring at every instant and word running thought my head.

"I wished I was good enough for you"I wishpered tears running through my cheeks like a fallen hope.

"I will always love you" I muttered slowly as all my hopes of being happy ran away.

I closed the door and walked away praying he didn't ear my last words.

I heard his voice calling for me as I stepped out of the room I went outside walked out of the church before I climbed in my car, I watched as David was walking towards the asile.

I climbed in my car and left, I seriously don't know what to do anymore if I should go back home or if I should just burst into the nearest tree and hope it would relief the pain in my chest.

Why...Why was I such a coward why did I just not tell him, why am I so hopeless coming near to a forest I decided to park my car and think sitting inside my car I watched as the sky became darker and everything became more peaceful I know the wedding was most likely finished by now I turn my engine back on and start to drive back to my house.

As I got in my house I settled down on my couch and grabbed the strongest bottle of whiskey I had laying around.

So I solved my pain through it after God knows how many glasses I remembered I forgot my phone in my car, getting up I felt a wave of dizziness running through me.

I got to my car and opened it trying to find my phone I found something that I wished wasn't true.

A gun I personally don't have one so I start wondering what this was doing here until I remembered this morning I dropped Allan a cop friend of mine at his work, he must of had dropped it .

Without even thinking I grabbed it and went back inside.

I don't know what's happening maybe it's the alcohol messing up with me but I normally am terrified of weapons yet here I am with a sp2022 in my hand figuring out what I should do with my life.

I should hang on to something but to what I lost my love, I lost my son, I lost my hope, I'm hopeless and disgusting, why would anyone ever love me.

I don't have anything anymore so I loaded the gun and aimed it at my heart shaking furiously.

But I couldn't decide to make the last movement and go back to a world of peace everything is raking thought my head at an incredible speed, I can't stop all this thoughts.

My head became blurry and my body weak until I pulled the trigger and saw the blood that once kept me alive run through my waist and legs the pain was less painful then I thought it would be I heard a voice shouting from the outside I looked at my door bursting open asmy eyes closed.

DAVID'S POV

I pulled up at his house after leaving my weeding at last moment I couldn't stand being away from him.

I got closer and heard a gun shot my heart racing worried I called his name tried to open the door but it was closed.

After a few seconds I decided to burst it open.

Once inside I was left with the last thing I have ever wanted to see in my life.

Blood trought the floor and Simon laying on his couch passed out a gun in his hand and bullet hole on his waist I ran towards him checking if he was still alive I could still feel his heartbeat I called him and called him but no answer I quickly called 112 and explained what was happening waiting for some kind of hope, they said they would come within 5 minutes.

5 minutes I just need you to live five more minutes Simon.

"Please wake up Simon I can't live without you"I cried and cried for what felt like an eternity when it was just a few seconds until I felt his hand move and his eyes slowly opening.

He looked at me and smiled "I'm sorry" he whispered I held him in my arms cuddling closer to his body to keep him safe and pressed my hand on the wound.

"No don't save you strength" I said looking at his peaceful eyes.

He put his head in my shoulder and breathed calmly and peacefully until
his breathing got slower and weaker and his eyes started to close again

I cried and told him that everything was going to be fine until he uses his last strength to put his forehead against mine and look into my eyes and said "I lov---" he stopped his eyes shutting close he was lifeless in my arms and I cried until help came.

But I knew at that moment that I lost the man I loved forever.

To be continued...

I'm sorry for anyone that cried but I warned it was a suicide