Now And Always.(Sequel to Acceptance)

He's not worth it.

Quinn was worried. Last night had been amazing and Ryan had stunned him with how flexible he had been. Now at breakfast, he was picking at his food, rubbing his stomach and wearing a frown. Quinn didn't need a seer to tell him something was bothering his husband.

"Babe, you are scaring me. Please tell me what's wrong? ", he begged. He didn't mind getting on his knees if it would get his darling husband to talk to him. But Ryan wasn't making it easy.

Ryan moved his gaze to him. Quinn wasn't pretending. He looked worried.
" Is it about the babies?. Are they....

" What am I to you "?, Ryan cut him short.

Quinn looked stunned by the question. " You are my husband, the one that I love. Why?. Is there something wrong?. Are you doubting my love for you again? "

Ryan sighed and rubbed his eye with the heel of his palm.
" I'm sorry for making you think I don't believe in your love for me, for us. But, I can't seem to stop thinking about what he said".

Quinn's ears perked up. " What who said? ".

" Calvin O'Brien ", he said in an almost inaudible voice.

Quinn cursed under his breath and punched the table in anger. Then, he began to pace back and forth with clenched fists and a furious expression.

" Who is he? ", Ryan's gaze followed his movement.

Quinn stopped in front of him. " He was a fling from my past. Met him again few months back".

" And you didn't think to tell me?", he sounded pissed, disappointed and hurt.

Quinn was on his knees in no time as he grabbed his hands.
" Baby, I planned to tell you. That night when you told me about visiting your father, I planned to. But, I couldn't add to what you are feeling.

" And the next day? ".

He swallowed." I forgot".

" You forgot to tell your husband that an obssessed fling from your past is back or you thought I wasn't worth the discussion? ".

"Don't talk like that", Quinn coerced, holding his chin.
" I didn't think he would show up again. I didn't intend for any of this to happen. I love you, Ryan. I'd rather die than to see you hurt".

He believed him. He always did.
" He's not worth it. Whatever he said to you is bullshit. Don't listen to him. Don't let him get to you. You are perfect, beautiful, smart, caring, gorgeous and mine. I love you for you, for who you are in here", he placed a palm on his chest where his heart was.

Ryan couldn't control the tears anymore. He let them spill. Quinn held him in his arms as he released all his pent up emotions in those tears.

" I love you too", Ryan replied in a hoarse tone of voice.
Quinn cupped his cheek and planted a kiss on his head.
"we will get through this, I promise ".