Living in the Dark

Chapter Two

They didn't know that, despite of me having this kind of attitude, has a story to be told. Ngunit ayaw kong malaman nilang mahina ako. Na lagi akong umiiyak gabi-gabi. Na tinatakpan ko lang kolorete ang mukha ko para maitago ang maiitim kong mga mata dahil sa pag-iyak.

Nilalabas ko lahat ng hinanakit ko sa pamamagitan ng pambu-bully o kaya'y clubbing. Laman ako ng mga clubs kadalasan. Umiinom ako, saba'y maghahanap nang lalaking paglalaruan. But my limitations are just up to flirting. Not kissing, or one night stands.

I would go home, sober.Then when I'm home, I would start to cry and remember how my life is a big mess. My father sustains me money, and materials or let's say everything, except love, care and attention. 

I never had serious relationships. All of them just lasts for a week, and a month is the longest. No exchange of I love yous. My boyfriends will just see me flirting with other guys, then break up is understood.

I don't also have friends. Fake friends rather. They will just befriend me, to become famous or for wealth. Sanay na sanay na ako sa sistema ng buhay ko.

My schoolmates doesn't know how high my I.Q. was. Whenever I take exams, even though I knew the anwers, I change it. That's how my school life works.

I actually don't celebrate my birthday, Christmas or other stuffs that must be celebrated. It's just a waste of time. Whenever Valentine's Day comes. I celebrate it by stealing someone's boyfriend. Everyday except Valentine's is just an ordinary day. No celebrations, just another day.

Upon entering my room, all eyes are on me. I just rolled my eyes, then plucked my earphones.

—

And they say, She's in the class A team,

Stuck in her daydream,

Been this way since eighteen,

But lately her face seems,

Slowly sinking wasting,

Crumbling like pastries

—

 *krrrinnngg*

"Goodmorning class." Of course, they answered back, but I didn't. May inilabas siyang papel. Ah, yung exam 'nung isang linggo.

"So here are the results of your exams. Sad to say most failed, and one perfected the exam." Then she smiled and looked at my direction. So predictable, I din't even review. Oh well, I just gave her my blank expression. Binigay niya yung mga papel, isa-isa.

"Congrats, Miss. Collin." She whispered. All the teachers know my case. I got my paper, and yes, I'm the one who got perfect. I wasn't actually surprised and I do not care if I pass or not. It will still not change the fact that my life's all screwed up. I just sighed and went out of the room without permission. Sanay naman na sila. I went out of the room with a smirk. Cutting time. 

Pumunta ako sa pinakamalapit na club gamit ang motorsiklo ko. I prefer it more than cars. But I have 'em also. I sat down at a stool then ordered a rum. I guess I'll be clubbin' all day.