ᴜɴʀᴀᴠᴇʟᴇᴅ |ᴀ.ʟ| ꜱʜᴀᴅᴏᴡʜᴜɴᴛᴇʀꜱ ꜰᴀɴꜰɪᴄᴛɪᴏɴ {ᴛʜᴇ ᴄᴀᴍɪʟʟᴇ ꜰᴀɪʀᴄʜɪʟᴅ ᴛʀɪʟᴏɢʏ #2}

{𝕾𝖙𝖔𝖕}

A knock at my door alerts me and I rush for the door hurriedly, mid-way through preparing for a mission.

Dot had narrowed down the location to a few different spots on the ley line map and Clary had managed to figure out where it was - one of the spots was a lake Mom used to take her to, watch her sketch for hours on end while I was...working, cleaning, doing whatever Mom asked me to do.

I never got to go on those mother-daughter bonding trips and in fact, Clary's recount was the first I'd even heard about it. Maybe the rejection from her had to do with my connection to Jonathan - the baby she'd lost, the demonic child with eyes like coal and deathly hands. Maybe she'd thought I would turn out like him.

I had to admit, the same thought had crossed my own mind too, fleetingly. Too much evidence pointed to my angelic blood - the angelic backbone of the mundani curse, the gold runes, drinking from the Mortal Cup for my transition, the extensive Shadow World knowledge. I'd surely have the wrath of many Angels upon me had that information been given to a girl with demonic blood.

Opening the door, I find none other than Sebastian standing before me. Once returned earlier, Alec had sent him away, claiming no more hands were needed for our mission but really he just wanted Dot's security reduced to me, Clary and Jace, to prevent further security risks.

"Hey, Sebastian" I greet him with a nod, leaving the door open to move back to my bed, collecting the leather jacket that awaited me, "Sorry, I'm just about to head out on mission."

"Oh, s-sure, yeah" Sebastian stutters, following me into the room, "I actually...I just wanted to...make sure you're okay.

"Why wouldn't I be?" I deflect, shrugging my jacket on

"I saw how upset you were today. I'm really sorry about your friend." The apology was sincere, reaching his eyes, a tinge of guilt as if he'd been responsible.

Shadowhunters. So noble.

"I keep losing the people that I care about" I sigh, unexpectedly opening up, the words tumbling out like word vomit, "One after another and I just can't help feeling...hoping that at some point, it has to stop."

"And you're worried that, now Jonathan's back...it's not going to?"

"I don't know" I admit, shoulders lifting tiredly, "I know Clary is wary, but, like me she doesn't wanna keep losing people. And Jace thinks he's a lost cause, so...there's that."

"What do you think?"

What do you think?

A good question.

"I think...he was trapped with only Valentine and Angel knows who else to turn to. I think he was forced to become something he didn't even know he could be until it was too late. I think his having demon blood is not his fault. And-" I stop myself.

"And?" Sebastian prompts, eyes lighting up strangely - as if in excited anticipation of my answer.

"And I think I could've easily been him." I admit, voice barely a whisper, "We're twins and I...I don't know if Valentine did anything to me before I was born but he definitely did it to him, obviously. One tiny decision on Valentine's part and it could've been him you were talking to about me, right now. I understand what's he's capable of, that he has demon blood but...he's still my brother."

A kind of sad, sorrowful expression crosses Sebastian's face. There and gone in an instant but still definitely there.

"I sound stupid, crazy even, don't I?"

"No, no!" Sebastian refuses, "It's not stupid at all."

"I mean, if there's any kind of humanity left inside of him...I owe it to him to at least try to save him."