"What the hell happened out there?" daddy yelled at me.
"Nothing." I mumbled.
"Since when have you become so insensitive, huh?" daddy was boiling with fury.
Okay now that hit a nerve.
"Are you fucking serious? You wanna know why? Fine! I'll tell you! I hate everything. I hate the way you seem so happy with Jo and are readily welcoming them into the family. I hate the way you look at Jo the same way you looked at Ma three years ago. I hate the fact that Jasper had Jo and two other wonderful people by his side to help him grieve and still is behaving like an ungrateful little brat when I had no one, you were passed out in your own vomit surrounded with at least ten bottles of vodka while the funeral procession took place. I hate the fact that Carver barely contacted me and cut me out of his life during that time. You left me all alone to deal with ma's death, when I was just fucking seventeen years old!" I felt my voice breaking in between the constant shudders.
Daddy just stayed silent. He was probably surprised at how much rage I had been bottling up all these years.
"Lamb, I'm trying my best to put everything with Laura back in the past, something broke inside me when she killed herself, something I thought was unfix able, something that Jo changed, she made me wanna get better, she made me wanna feel alive again;" he chuckled, "be the person I used to be when your mother was alive." his voice broke.
I had never seen daddy this vulnerable. It broke my heart. At that point, all I could do was hug him.
"Its just, so hard for me to see you with another woman that's not ma, as much as I try to hide it, I'll always feel that way, I just-I feel like you're letting her go." I shuddered
"Never, lamb. She was my first love, I'll never be able to forget her...... Because you are the literal embodiment of your mother and every time I look it you it's like I'm seeing Laura. Your mother will always have special place in my heart, but I'm just trying to be happy again, with Jo I want to be happy again." He whispered as his tears stained my shirt.
"I'm sorry daddy." I shook profusely.
"No need for apologies lamb."
He wiped the tears off of his face and stood up. He stared at me, displaying a weak smile.
"We better go." I opened the door.
"Yeah."
As we stepped out, I noticed Jacob and Jason suspiciously whistling right outside of the room. Those midgets were eavesdropping! Well I never!
"Well, he refuses to come out, I have tried everything, from offering to take him shopping to even getting a new dog." Jo put her hand on her forehead and cupped her face in disappointment.
"I'm so sorry for what happened." I apologized profusely.
"Oh no, I'm sorry, for ruining this lovely dinner you must have spent ages on Alex." she looked at him apologetically."
I coughed. "I did, daddy did squat." I muttered.
Jason laughed. I showed him my signature death stare.
"Well, lamb, this might be the best time to talk to him." daddy nudged me gently with his elbow.
"M-maybe, yeah, okay." My legs were wobbling like crazy.
I walked into my room, which he had conveniently locked himself into.
I knocked gently and pressed my head on the knob of the door.
"Go away ,mother, for the last time, I don't want a fucking dog!"
"Now is that any way to talk to your mother,young man?" I chuckled.
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Faded Away (ROXY REINFIELD)
Romance(This mindblowing cover has been made by @meha_k. Guys please check her out! She is awesome and so incredibly sweet!) ************ She was grieving. He was broken. She wanted to have a will to live. He had nothing to live for. Their world's collided...
