Gently brushing off the dried leaves with her soft palm off the tombstone she prepared herself for the confrontation. She was aware that its gonna be hard but actually facing it is just unendurable. "Maria K. Rose (April 22nd 1973 to September 6th 2018) A great friend & a loving mother" Reading the encryption on the stone she tried to speak, but tears and emotions were too stubborn, making her choke on every words. Blinking her eyes to stop the water work she took a deep breath. Determination on her face, she started again "Hello mom! It's me, Katherine. I know it's been long since my last visit here." she paused for a while. Maybe expecting a sign to continue. Laughing at her own stupidity she continued "come on Katherine. You never actually paid a visit." she contradicted
For an outsider it'd be weird to see someone laughing and crying while stating and countering self at the same time but no one's alive there to judge and the ones who are, are too engrossed in there own grief.
"Sierra crashed in last night. We had a long time catching up spending a quality sister time together. She will pay you a visit too don't worry she's just sound asleep. She filled me in with her life. It's like I never left and was always there with her. She's really sorted and mature for her age. I'm glad she's doing so great in her life." remorse took over her words. She didn't realised that a lone tear escaped her eyes trailing down her cheeks. It was the tear of longingness. Wiping her cheeks and laughing humorlessly she continued "You know she reassured me that she has no hard feelings for me and asked me to stop being hard on myself. She said it will get better soon and I'll be able to move on and that she forgave me for running away abandoning her and you just like that. And that, that she understands where they were coming from. Quite mature she is, isn't she. I'm really proud of her mom."
It started drizzling with thunderstrom. It's like sky is also grieving over her misery while cold rain and wild thunder were mocking her. Taking her time she welcomed the sensations. All these mixed emotions doesn't make her feel a thing now. She's numb and emotionally drained at the moment. But that didn't hindered her from talking to her mother."dad passed away 2 years ago. It was a stroke. But before going he confessed something which changed everything thing it felt like a stroke in my guts. I was suffocating and it was really hard for me to believe. I still can't believe that he was capable of doing such things. Every piece of puzzle fell in place after his confession. Your loathing towards him hatred and hostility for me, Your unstable moody behavior, your punishments everything." her voice was breaking every now and then quivering in cold rain she was totally drenched in tears and rain. "I was like a lost soul after funeral. Didn't knew what to do because what I believed in was all a half truth and fake light. I returned, thinking that maybe I'll talk to you sort things out and maybe we'll be able to start over, only to receive another devastating news. That you left too, way before him. I couldn't muster up the courage to visit your grave when all I imagined that you will be seated on your favorite chair in backyard sipping on your lemon tea and cussing Sierra for not brewing it properly." she broke down completely in hiccups with regrets of 'what ifs'. " I chickened out mom. I'm sorry but I ran away, again. But not anymore I promise. It took me two years to realize in order to move on I've to face this."
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Flair, art of forgiveness
Truyện NgắnKatherine M. Dallas, an aspiring lawyer in the city of Normania. She was thick skinned her eyes never shined for life and face wore same expression. No doubt she was very professional, sorted relation, as she hardly have any, and away from any emoti...