You Promised

Impact

AN: So, it has been a really long time since I have updated. I have been struggling alot with my mental health and of course that includes writer's block too. But, I am back, ready to see what Gabriel and Ivy's story will become because I am on the edge of my seat trying to know just like y'all. I would like to give a bit of a CONTENT WARNING because this chapter and some others in the future will have content that relates to depression, anxiety, and suicide. Of course I will be placing these content warnings before each chapter that includes this kind of content but just a heads-up. Onwards :)

Content Warning: Small mention of suicidal thoughts.

~Gabriel~

5:30 pm

I looked at the clock in my car for the fifth time in the last minute. Sighing, I looked at my phone to see if there were any new messages from anyone. Much to my disappointment, I forgot I didn't have friends. 

I looked down at my thumbs and started twirling them together in a circular motion, feeling this tight feeling in my chest. Air felt foreign in my lungs as it escaped quickly. 

The twins should be out of therapy at 5:30 pm, where are they..? 

Are they okay?

Did something happen?

Was it something I said?

Are they still in there?

Do they need me for something?

Suddenly, there was no air around me, I started gasping like a fish out of water, gripping onto the steering wheel for some kind of leverage in this fight against myself. 

Suddenly, I heard a knock on the window

My head shot up quickly as I met Angel's face with Ana standing behind him looking at her phone. I unlocked the door and smiled as they climbed in. I took a quiet deep breath as they put their seatbelts on.

"Hey, how was it today?" I asked softly.

"It was okay," Angel replied while pulling out his phone.

"My therapist brought cookies," Ana smiled but it quickly faded when she met my eyes in the rearview mirror. 

I looked away and stared ahead, I just wanna get it right..just this once...

Angel looked at me and flicked me, I looked to my left and gave him a weird look.

"So, I was thinking about pizza for tonight, how about it?" Angel said with a reassuring tone as he looked at Ana and I.

"Pizza is good with me," She replied in the back seat.

"Whatever is good with you guys is good with me," I said starting the car, smiling slightly.

"Well that is a first," I heard Lisa mumble. I looked at my lap feeling defeated once again.

I'll never be able to live this down, it's not like I deserve to either...

I slowly pulled out of the parking lot and drove down the road, my thoughts consuming my brain. 

Pizza

We are going to the pizza parlor

It's safe

I can do this simple task 

I'll be good at this

Just this once, I'll be good for them

"Gabriel look out!" Angel screamed next to me.

I snapped out of my trance and swerved the car avoiding a car in the lane in front of me that stopped abruptly.