my brothers best friend

chapter 25: i missed you

Bryce's point of view
"What are you doing here?" I ask flatly. She reaches for my hand and takes it in hers. I look up into her eyes. She looks so beautiful, and even with what she did nothing will change that. She is gorgeous. 

I find that her eyes are puffy with dark circles around them. She hasn't gotten any sleep, all because of me. She shouldn't be this heartbroken about it, I am not that much to lose in a relationship. Sad but true.

"Bryce I came here to talk to you and explain" she starts, letting go of my hand. "Addison, please. I understand that we were just a fling to you, and that you never thought we would go far. I have been heartbroken before I'm not new to it.

"I am worth nothing. Have been worth nothing my whole damn life. My parents loved my little sister more than me, I knew. I loved her too, but we both knew that she was the favorite. They never wanted to see me again after her death. They blamed me for it.

"I had no where else to go, they just gave me my car, my stuff, and left to go cheat on each other. All I ever wanted from them was love and affection, not a car or cool awesome stuff normal kids wouldn't have. I just waned to be loved and feel loved, but they failed me.

"Addison you are a beautiful and kind person, with a golden heart in you. You don't deserve a kid like me who knows nothing about love because he has only felt it once. You deserve someone who is loved, and will love you" 

Tears slide down my face. "You taught me how to love Addison. And I will forever appreciate it. But I can't be in the same damn town as you. All I do is think about you you never leave my mind. And I need to focus on school. Goodbye Addison"

I walk over to check on my stuff but Addison pulls my arm. "No Bryce! I am not gonna let you walk away again! I'm gonna explain my side of the damn story and you are going to listen. Then you can decide to walk away" she screams. I stay put and look at her, stunned.

( go off addi can I just add )

"Bryce," she starts "that was so I can get Nick off my back I didn't know Avani was recording. It was a stupid thing to say and I will regret saying it for the rest of my life. That girl had no idea what she would get herself into with you Bryce. She was dumb and stupid and a goody goody.

"I meant it when I said I loved you Bryce. I do, I really do. You see me for me, and not for a nerdy girl to use for a grade or for help to pass. You were my first kiss, and that meant something to me. You make me better as a person Bryce.

"You make me feel weightless when we're together. People bullied me all my life about my weight and body and my parents even told me to lose a couple pounds. But you don't care about that stuff Bryce. You make me forget that people even talked about it.

"You are worth something to me Bryce. You bring joy to my life on my darkest of days, and made me smile through all the tough times I have. You are a lot to lose Bryce, and I am not ready to let you go. Not yet, not now, not ever.

"I can't promise you will get the love you strive for from your parents. I can't promise to make you the favorite. I can't promise that I can bring your sister back" I choked back a sob.

"But I can promise to give you the love you deserve. I can promise to make you smile every second of everyday. I promise to grow happy and old with you. I promise that you will go to bed and wake up every day with a smile on your face because of me" she finishes.

Addison's point of view
I finish with what I have to say, tears running down my cheeks like a river. Bryce stares at me blankly, trying not to cry. I hope he changes his mind. I mean all this time of me spilling my guts to him has to be worth something right?