Tumblr's Magnetic Attraction

8. Darkened Eighteen

Faith, my older sister (Shanelle) and I are walking up and down the sixteenth street mall in Denver. We are already holding a bag from Claire's. I got a pair of earrings that had a bunch of skulls dangling up and down it. Faith got small studs and Shanelle bought this flashy necklace which doesn't at all surprise me. She loves stuff like that.

"So, Rachel, I want you as my maid of honor," Shanelle says.

"I knew you were going to say that," Faith says. "Didn't I, Rachel?"

"I also can sense how much you want to design my wedding gown... well, I want you to design it, too. I was just afraid that it would intervene with your school work," Shanelle explains.

"You like designing clothes?" Faith asks.

I nod awkwardly.

"Oh," she says and she looks really confused. I bet that she feels like I told her before, but that when I did, she wasn't listening to me. So she decided to keep her "guilty" mouth up.

"How many ideas do you already have in your head?" Shanelle asks.

"A lot, but there is one in particular that I just would love to show you," I say.

"You mean, it's already made?" Shanelle asks curiously.

"Yes."

"When did you have time to design an entire wedding dress?" Faith asks. "Did Erin even know about all of it. Wow... Well, I guess we all already know that you are explicitly good at hiding secrets," Faith says.

I know that she is referring to my bulimia.

** **

Snow was pouring down like it's business was to make the day dull and depressing. Erin and I decided that we didn't want to go out to the skate park in this kind of weather. Erin already texted me and told me that we weren't even going to see each other today. I already wrote on Tumblr, I did it all. Really all I could do is start working on fashion. I had a dress in mind that I really wanted to sew up... a wedding dress.

** **

I always end up, finding time to do what I love most," I said, it was the summer of freshmen year and for a week, I was not going to see Erin. He went to stay in Florida with his parents and siblings. They're at Disney World.

For that entire week, I was designing. I designed a pair of white, lacy shoes. I designed another wedding dress and another one for a reception. Lastly, I made a pair of jeans. I did it all and I had fun doing it. I made the heels on the shoes rounded.

** **

Why am I embarrassed that I like fashion designing? Well... I have no freaking idea.

"I guess I forgot to mention it," I say and Faith rolls her eyes.

"I did," I say, innocently.

"Well, I guess that you are going to have to show it to me," Shanelle says.

I nod and say, "As soon as you'll allow me to."

"Let's go into this Hot Topic," Faith suggests. Shanelle and I look each other in the eyes. Her's is asking mine if it wasn't to go. Mine is asking her's... so in the end, we both just sort of nod.

The store is dark as usually. My eyes immediately land on this black dress. I swear, they have amazing clothes. Just... sometimes I hate how it's set up. I'd totally redo it for free... no costs. All I'd want in return is a big perky smile that suggests... that I did a pretty good job. I run over to the dress and look for my size. They have a whole lot of it. I nod in satisfaction. "I'm going to try this on," I say.