Loving The Boss.

14.

"So you slept with him, like Hugh Lamont took your virginity like his dick was in your and all that."

"God Yes Justin." I was already on edge and I knew talking to Justin was a bad idea but he would understand. "Well how does it feel? I mean he finally did the one thing you've wanted in years." I nod as I go through the ocean of emotions in me.

"It feels funny, weird, and scary." He scoffs. "I would feel amazing, though I'm sure you would too if well you know, he woke up in the same bed with you."

"Yeah that is what's putting me on edge." He sighs.

"Well you aren't going to get answers from us." Simon who was on the video chat as well spoke up.

"I know guys, he's not back yet he's been gone all day." They both hum. "Simon this is your typical guy thing, is he avoiding him."

Simon shrugs. "Well if I had to be honest yeah, he's avoiding you because right now I'm looking at him with a blonde leaving his office." I froze could it be. "It's not the bitch from last time is it?" Justin asked.

"No it's number one, and it seems the two might have had a—." He stops mid-sentence. "You're gonna need eyes on this yourself Mel." Simon switched his camera to the back and what I saw just didn't burst bubbles I was clinging to, I felt every part of me breaking, I could feel my heart sink and the pain I felt before intensify, I could feel my eyes sting with the tears I was trying so hard to keep at bay.

"Oh." I sounded so broken, my voice was that of a mutilated victim clinging to the last vestige of life before everything just stopped hurting. "Simon, I think we get the picture." I knew then I wasn't really important to him, I had given everything to him and this is what he does the night after having sex with me.

"I'm sure there is a reasonable explanation as to why his lips we on his assistants." Justin knew this hurt. "I'm always here for you okay." I nod toward Simon before he cuts his call. "What will you do?" I honestly didn't know, I had anger in me but it was nothing compared to the anguish I felt. "I don't know." I replied making him wipe a tear away from his own cheek.

"I'm going to be here alright just call anytime and if you feel like running away just come to my apartment okay?" I nod before Justin sighs and cuts the connection.

The moment he did so I fell to my knees, was this how it felt to be used and thrown away, was this how it felt to be truly broken. Huddled in the corner I cried wishing for anything other than this pain, why would he do this. I couldn't understand why, was this his way of avoiding the destruction of our friendship, the moment he laid me on that bed and filled me, our friendship died so what was this.

I had exhausted myself so I fell asleep on the rug, it's soft bristles never giving comfort that I wanted. What was I going to do, I couldn't live here, where could I go where he wouldn't find me. I fell deeper into slumber with these thoughts.

The evening air brought a sense of despair with it today, it's harshness only reminded me of what had happened and the overdue talk I was to have with Hugh, I needed to know what was going on why we spent a passionate night and him ruining it.

So I got up to my feet the slight burn of having had sex with Hugh present, it served as a reminder of what had transpired the night before, it truly had been a fairytale if only those existed.

I could hear two voices downstairs but I knew there were three people downstairs. As I stood there face to face with Hugh and Assistant One with Nolan giving me the saddest facial expression his face could muster up I knew nothing good was about to happen.

"Hello Mel, you didn't come to the office today, are you okay?" He asked oblivious to what had happened or I was the one buying his act. "I felt sick." I replied half the truth, he didn't need to know about what happened. "I'm sure you must have been sore." I froze as the ever evident smirk on his face grew, so he knew.

"Nolan could you guide our guest to my bedroom." Hugh finally spoke making me snap out of the shock running through me. What was he doing, was he going to pretend that nothing happened, it really couldn't be.

"So Mel about yesterday, that wasn't supposed to happen, I think we took it too far and that we should just forget it happened." I looked at him with disbelief and anger.

"So you're telling me I should forget about us having sex, to forget all this and pretend nothing happened seriously, do you hear yourself?" He looks to Nolan and nods. "Yes I do so please for the sake of our friendship don't do or say anything that might cause more damage than what's been done." I hated his monotone voice like this was a contract he had infringed.

"I can't forget what happened Hugh and you being an ass about it hurts, so you sleep with me and you very well know that was my first time and afterward you bring your assistant home for what? To show me having sex was normal, doing it with me made no difference, I can't accept being used and tossed away I'm not a puppet." I had tears rolling down my cheeks as I poured out my heart.

"You will never know this feeling Hugh, of being in love with someone so much you forgive them over and over again for killing, hoping they will love you. But if you want to go back to how it was then okay." I wiped my tears away, I had no more tears to cry I had to put me first right now.

"You're my best friend Mel and I can't lose you after having a failed relationship with you, we both know once we try whatever this is it will end up in disaster and I can't lose my best friend over something I could prevent." He walks toward me and put both his hands on my shoulders.

"We've been friends for a long time and I can't afford to lose you." I snicker. "If fucking your assistant didn't show me that, then I don't know what else will, you've proven your point then." His eyes showed a vulnerability I had known for years but as quickly as it came, it went away.

"I have dinner to make." I said wiping my tears away, the last of them. I put on my brave facade and walked to the kitchen with Nolan in tow. "For what it's worth, I'm sorry." His voice was gentle and sincere I was grateful for it but right now I didn't want pity.

"Thank you, Nolan, what's done is done, need anything." I smiled like there wasn't anything wrong with me right now and I knew deep down as the night fell I had to leave, I had to go, I couldn't stay here anymore, I've tried my best to love him but if he can't love me then I was wrong for seeing a future with him.

"No, I will be here if you need anything." I knew Nolan was trying to be comforting but the numbness in my heart was all too prominent and my plan of escape was already in progress as I cut the beef on the chopping block.

As dinner came and went I served Hugh and assistant number one the guest. I couldn't bring myself to hate Hugh and Tony, yeah I had to go back to calling him Tony, it seemed with how the two were progressing he was going to be a permanent guest.

I could hear the moans in the room across from mine, this was the other unspoken yet visible rule, Hugh was not supposed to bring anyone up the stairs but here Tony was being fucked. It didn't hurt as it should I didn't know why. I should feel something because not hours ago I was in that bed, but I felt nothing.

I was leaving anyway.

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LMJ