Lost but Found//5SOS

Good morning

Alexis POV
I woke up forgetting ashton was sleeping next to me so I kinda jumped making him stir a bit I slowly got um and started to make coffee I then went and sat at a table waiting for someone to wake up
"Alexis" ash mumbled with a kinda sexy morning voice. "where are you" he said coming into the kitchen "oh" he said and grabbed a cup of coffee. I couldn't help but giggle at his morning voice it was adorable and sexy I just loved it and his morning hair was cute I felt like a little girl fangirling over some celebrity
"Well good morning ash" I giggled.
He smiled so I gave him a questionable look
"Your wearing my sweat pants and shirt" he said sleepally .
"So?"
ASHTONS POV
"So?"
Little did she know that this felt right her in my clothes and the way she giggle at my morning appearance and voice I think she may like me but... I can't tell
"Nothing" I giggled.
"Ok...."
I just giggled and I saw her hair was messy so I messed it up even more damn she was naturally beautiful I wish one day I could call her mine
But a girl like her wouldn't like me no girl would for that matter I'm an ugly ass douche I can't go into full detail about how I hate myself it's stupid
"Damn Alexis u like coffee I guess" I said considering her cup was full less then 50 seconds ago.
"Just a little .... a lot "she giggled.

I giggled with her this..... Right here..... Was perfect.

ALEXIS POV
ashton smiled at me I couldn't help but laugh he was so cute this was perfect I just wanted to lean in and kiss him but no he doesn't like me that way. no guy ever would but I just ugh he was like everything I want in a guy sweet kind funny adorable understanding a great listener.
Michael ran in away from calum
"You fucking took my pants give them back" out ran a naked calum ash took his hand and covered my eyes I couldn't help but laugh these boys were supper funny I just couldn't stop the laughter they made me so happy I don't know how to explain it

It made me regret hurting myself again last night I sat up with Ashton's hands still covering my eyes
He moved his hands giggling "they are gone now Alexis"
I weakly giggled back then looked down and my wrists realizing I don't have anything to cover up my cuts I left me bracelets on the other bus
"Alexis are you okay?"ashton asked with concern.
"Ya I'm fine " I grabbed my sides hiding my wrists quickly.
He looked me with wonder.
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*ASHTONS POV*
Why did she quickly hide herself a bit
Plz don't tell me she did what I think she did she can't hurt herself she is and angel why could anyone hate her I don't want her doing what I once did myself....
"Alexis give me your wrist"
"Why ashton"she said shaky yet stern.
i grabbed her arm and pulled it so I could see her arm

She had cuts all Over her wrists I felt tears start to weld up in my eyes

"Alexis" my voice cracked.

-a/n::::::: hey love erm Ya bit of a cliffhanger lol love u ummm ideas who do u want to end up together her and ash may not Or may just end up together how do you think he will react hmmmm..... Let me know sorry for not updating back in the usa was in Australia so Ya and didn't edit CUZ lazy af and Ya sorry this is utter shit
-SKYxxx ❤️❤️❤️