7-Anti-anxiety pills or Scotch?

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I don't know what's happening but I think I'm beginning to losing my mind

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I don't know what's happening but I think I'm beginning to losing my mind. Since the day at the hospital, my mom has made it her duty to supervise me like a mentally disturbed person. I know I have my irrational days but I do not deserve this treatment and if she makes me swallow those anti-anxiety pills one more time, I can't guarantee my sanity anymore.

Why should a pill that is supposed to help a person relax and feel calm make the person depressed and sad? At this point, it doesn't even matter because I've accepted the fact that I'm not meant to live a happy life. I'm definitely ill-fated. I'm yet to resume school and I've tried my best to avoid my phone and the internet but right now, I'm bored in the house and I'm in the house bored, so, I'm gonna check out what's happening in the world.

I have a bad feeling about surfing the internet but could I really feel any worse than I already feel? I don't think so. The past week has been quite eventful, from my school drama to Keith's seizure to another one of my drama. I am beginning to feel like a teenage girl in a Wattpad novel except this is real and a Wattpad novel might have a little more fun and excitement.

My mom is locked up in her room, she's been at home more these days but that hasn't helped our mother-daughter relationship. she has been more withdrawn, only showing up to make me swallow those depression pills and looking at me like I'm a psycho. Keith has been my only companion since the trip to the hospital but he's at school right now so I'm just going to keep myself entertained checking out twitter and stuff.

I picked up my phone and started scrolling, seeing the Netflix app made me feel like checking out new Netflix movies but then, I'll just probably spend one hour thirty minutes watching a movie with a poor storyline like 365 days. I'd rather spend that time laughing on twitter and watching Instagram and youtube videos.

I turned on my data connection and started receiving several notifications which were strange. I had gained about 10k followers on Instagram and a lot more on twitter. I'm not a social media influencer neither am I famous, this development is fishy and there is more to it than I can see. I decide to ignore the notification and scroll through my feeds. There it was, the reason for my popularity: Melanie has posted the link to a youtube video titled: CRAZY, THE NEW TREND IN LAKESIDE HIGH.

This bitch has got some nerves.

I knew what I was expecting when I clicked the link but as soon as the page loaded I froze.

54k views???

I hate our internet because I don't know why are people always happy to watch other people being ridiculed or humiliated as if they've got it all together themselves. As I watched the video, I could feel my despair hovering over my head like a dark cloud ready to pour. Seeing my fear-stricken face had me feeling some kind of way,  I do not know why I continued watching the video but I did and soon I was reading the comments under it.

She must be some kind of freak!!!

Y'all allowed crazy people into schools when there are psychiatric homes.

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