My mistake,My child

Chapter 2

Today, it's a Saturday,since it's March and it's still warm, I'm rocking my summer dress and I can't wait to spend time with my boyfriend Thabang,my friends don't like him because he is a player too much,according to what they say but that is all because of his looks, he is a yellow bone with China eyes,he is medium height and he is a bit buff all thanks to playing volleyball so girls throw themselves at him, I don't blame them though but I know that he loves me.

I will visit him in his home since his parents are not home but I have to lie though about my whereabouts because my Aunt would kill me if she could find out that I have a boyfriend so I just said I'm going to Thando's house.

"Hi,babe please open the gate for me", Thabang is a  so called coconut guy because he lives in the suburb part of Umlazi and that is in N section and his family is super rich.
Thabang : Sthandwa sami(my love)he hugged me so tightly and I'm instantly hit by the cologne mmm..this man does things to me and his fashion sense is so good he makes me look bad,today he is wearing a nice brown short with a blue laid back t-shirt both Polo and simple Havaianas sandals,sometimes I can't believe that he is still a scholar. Me : Hi babe,I've missed you so much.

After letting me in he makes food for me and we chill to watch a movie,all of a sudden I can feel his hands on my thighs and he starts kissing my neck.
Me : Thabang what are you doing? You know that we are not supposed to do that.
Thabang : but babe,we have been dating for almost a year now please just let me show you that I love you.
Don't get me wrong I love him but in this one year we have been dating, we have had our ups and downs and during those moments I have done things that could jeopardise our relationship.
Me: Thabang,I know that you love me so you don't have to prove it to me in this way.
Thabang : but babe,lately you have been so distant from me what's wrong?
Instead of answering him I just kissed his lips because to be honest I can't tell him this right now,the kiss moved to my neck and things were moving very quickly and the next thing I knew we were both naked.
Thabang : Cindy,are you sure you want this?
Me : Yes!!
Little did he know that I have already been through this whole prep talk and I knew what was gonna be next,its the whole 'I will be gentle talk'.

Thabang : okay,I promise I won't hurt you. I will be gentle as possible.
I knew it. He reached for a condom and he tried to slowly  get inside my flower but it wouldn't budge. He insisted that we remove the condom and so we did but still he just couldn't go through.

Now this confused me because I knew that I was not a virgin anymore and I lost it in December to someone I was not even inlove with,it all happened so quickly and I am really ashamed of myself.

"I'm sorry Cindy,but it seems like you are not ready or maybe it's my fault".I knew that I couldn't keep this from him for to long I might as well tell him."Babe,I have something to tell you,and I want you to know that I have never meant to hurt you. Do you remember that in December we were on  a break right,so I did something bad and I'm sorry.
"What?,tell me".
"Well, I am no longer a virgin".