My mistake,My child

Chapter 1

"Cindy wake up,the maths teacher is here dude". I quickly woke up and tried to maintain my cool but I was not aware of the fact that I was drooling and now the whole class was laughing at me. "Okay people settle down" Mrs Ndlovu came to my rescue but I was still embarrassed. I also don't understand what's wrong with me lately,but I'm just always tired and I'm just not in the mood to learn or even be at school and I'm just sick constantly. "Cindy can I please have a word with you after class"asked Mrs Ndlovu, "yes Mam"

After what felt like forever the lesson was over and Mrs Ndlovu was taking her staff when she signaled for me to follow her outside. To be honest I was not looking forward to this conversation because this is more than three times she has caught me sleeping in her class but I just had to be positive,"so Cindy how are you doing today?" She asked with her sweet voice,"I'm good Mam". "You know there is no need to lie to me,I have noticed that you sleep a lot in class so what's wrong?"now my heart was racing but I just had to be honest and tell her maybe she can give me a good advice as a mother or sister." Mam I also don't understand what's wrong,lately I have been feeling tired and sleepy I don't understand why and I'm just always sick". All the time I was talking she looked me deep in my eyes like she was deep in thought and that just made me even more nervous,"mmhm..so tell me are you sexually active?". Now that caught me off guard but if I lie I won't get the help I need but why would she ask me that though,is she implying something?" Yes Mam however I use safety measures" this is scary as hell.
Mrs Ndlovu : so tell me what type of safety measures do you use,uyasoma(an act of where a male inserts their penis in the female thighs)
Me : no Mam I use a condom.
Mr's Ndlovu : All the time?
Me : yes(lying)
Mrs Ndlovu: I can see through you, that is lie. So just to give it to you straight you sound like a pregnant person so I would suggest you  go to a clinic or tell your family before I do,siyezwana(understand)
Me:yes Mam.
Mrs Ndlovu: good, now go back to class while you still can because if you are pregnant this will soon be over.

No..none of it makes sense I know that I'm not pregnant she is just messing with my mind plus I know that she never liked me so she hates me and is trying to bring me down well guess what I won't let her, Pregnant? ha ha imagine she is officially crazy.

"So tell us what did she say?" I knew that there is no way I could run away from Thando my best friend who by all means gets anything she wants. "She suggested that I should see a doctor because I might be pregnant". "What!,no way. Is she crazy?,that is not possible. I know you use safety measures,right?". "To be honest not all the time so now I'm scared that I could be really pregnant." "Look friend,don't worry, what we gonna do is go to a doctor as soon as possible but we have to save money first,so we can go end of the month"."But it could be too late by then..oh well it's fine I will wait till then."

Later that day I went home and just wanted nothing but to eat and sleep however my Aunt had other things in mind.
Aunty : so Cindy make sure that all the clothes are washed and hanged and also today I feel like having Samp.
Me : but Aunty that takes forever,and it's already late.
Aunty : Then you better start now,anginandaba(I don't care).
I just hate my life my Aunt treats me like her own personal slave,I have to work my butt off while she does nothing,she wouldn't treat her  children like this,yes she does have children of her own. Two boys and a girl but I call them my brothers and sister because unlike their mother they treat me like their own sibling. They are all married now so it's only me and her in the house so they do not know about the kind of treatment she gives me.

After supper, I cleared the table and washed the dishes but I can't seem to take my mind off Mrs Ndlovu's words,what if I am really pregnant? Am I ready to face everything,am I ready for the consequences? Can I bring a child to this world while my own life makes no sense?.