My mistake,My child

Chapter 3

"I have the list of the people who will attend the 'Take A Girl To work'programme and these are the top performing students in the English subject,so I will post this at the back of the class so you can check for your name."
"Congrats Cindy,looks like you made it." What me? I mean I know I do good in English but I didn't expect this.

Thando : Hey friend,so we are on the list.you know what that means right?
Me : What?
Thando : You will bring lunch for us,and I will bring my sexy mouth and stomach.
Me : No way, you lazy ass. We are both bringing something and then we will share.
Thando : So how are things going between you and your man?
Me : mmm..good I guess.
Thando : You know you can tell me right? I'm here to give you an advice.
Me : Okay,so you remember how I told you that I lost my virginity to that jerk,so yeah I t-
Thando : OMG!!,you told him. You dumb girl,how could you?
Me : Well that's because he tried to take it this weekend so sooner or later he would have realised it.
Thando : No, your flower is a muscle remember so if it hasn't been touched for a while it goes back to its state...unless you have been with someone again.
Me : mmhm..maybe.
Thando : Who? please tell me.
Me : I'm not telling you plus I have to go,bye.
Thando : Wait,its the jerk. Cindy what if you get pregnant? I suggest you stop this madness it's not right.
Me : Trust me I want to stop but it's just so addictive. I hate myself after doing it but when we are in the middle of it. I feel so good and appreciated.
Thando : Thabang loves you,that's what should matter what you are doing now is pure psycho. I will see you in class.

I also hate what is going on, I do not like it at all. Sometimes I wonder how such an innocent thing turned so complicated.

Three years ago
"Cindy,I'm getting married,look at my ring I said yes"."Wow,congrats sis,so when are we meeting the lucky guy?"
"Soon,plus remember I told you that he has a son and a daughter so I want you to welcome them"." Okay,no problem sis"
My sister was getting married and I was so excited and happy for her.

Finally the day came for me to meet her fiance's children,the boy Sbu, was 13 years and the girl Owethu,was 3 years. The boy looked so innocent,mind you I was 14 at the time. He was a tall,kind of a timid guy who really annoyed me with his pranks.
As time continued we got so close and one thing I noticed was that we had so much in common we both liked to laugh and share silly jokes. I really wanted to view him like a brother but I just couldn't instead he was more of a friend. One evening things took a turn.

It was a few months after the wedding and I was visiting my sister's new house. It was after dinner time and we were cleaning up in the kitchen and we were goofing around as normal,when suddenly he just looked in my eyes while he held a carrot.
Sbu : Cindy,when you look at this carrot do you know that it can enter different places,look.
He took it and pointed it in my tummy,in my head and my back so I was just innocently laughing hysterically but the last two places he poked me in ,just shocked me, that was in my butt and my flower.
For a moment, we looked deep in each others eyes, like a very deep stare as if we were both just registering what just happened and what might happen afterwards. Little did I know that was the beginning of a big mistake of my life.

Days went by and I couldn't take the carrot scenario out of my mind,I was asking myself questions like could the carrot mean something else? Why did he poke my flower? Soon my questions were about to be answered.
"Hey sis,I'm on my way there,to spend the weekend".I wish I would have listened to my guts and never went that weekend."It's fine Sbu is at home but we will delay just a bit and will be home late","Okay no problem".
When I got in the house Sbu was busy watching some Telly so I thought let me start cooking since my sister would be home late. He seemed to be distant today and not talking much so I thought let me just let him be so I took my phone and my earphones and listened to music.While I was minding my own business I felt his hands on my waist and his lips at the back of my neck when I turned, there he was,he just stared at me and I was so speechless and he just started kissing me.