La Torera y El Toro

Skepticism of a skull queen

(Punctuation and grammar will determine on which character is writing) 

Raven's POV

Sept 20 2018

My whole ideal of shadaloo is slowly  becoming one hell of a organization. I was walking to a nice and luxurious cafe minding my own business, till my boss texted me, saying that there where a few people in the cafe that where drug dealers and told me to kill them ..that was sorta...hypocritical...don't we do that too? Eh  whatever shrugged it off and headed towards my mission. I started to follow them when they left there table Invisible of course I try to be stealthy with my kills Before I had a sudden feeling that they heard my breathing, So they tried to lose me but, luckily for me Ed they made it to the back of the alley way.

 I teleport right in front I slid his neck with my dagger with ease I  hear the the girl in front of me screamed out on top of her lungs, her eyes they looked like as if she had seen a ghost right in front of her, her hands where shaking ,her skin turned pale from head to toe and enough to make her paralyzed with fear! She looked like she couldn't move what so ever I was so used to the fear of that when i was back in the cp manor ..but it seems like ...they was innocent? I really hesitated here before i hear Ed's voice saying "Kill her she abuses her husbands or boyfriends to the brim." 

"Boss I think this girl is innocent, I don't think i can kill her,  she looks parallelized from all the way down." 

"listen here buddy. If you don't break her bones, your's and Vega's  bones will be next and as well as less pay! Think of how Vega would feel if you and him got less riches!" my mind was scattering, trying to get my morals fully straight do I chose a innocent girl's life or Risk both of our lives as a whole. My mind echoed with voices  it got increasingly louder and louder to the point where i had enough! I  teleported my ax my own sister gave me,I gripped onto it like it was no tomorrow, before swinging at her neck trying to be quick and the least painful way i can go i saw her corpse laying there my body got nauseated that it was even from an Innocent girl  or boy that I didn't even speak to them they are both dead with cold blood.... Now i have to clean there remains in horror.

So now I think, Was ed lying to me this whole dam time about this? throughout my years of being a queen I thought we where a helpful organization...

... God I feel so fucked up ... If they go overboard here I will fucking quit! I am getting so tired of this shit three years of pain of fame, of death, of beauty too! I am starting to get the dam hint, that I am just hurting innocent people for years now! I just want to fucking get out of this whole cell I ended up trapped in. the pay is good but that is besides the point now ...I should go to bed ,don't think ill recover from this...Good night.