Dahmin Imagine

4- Hurtful acceptance

Dahyun's points of view

I opened my eyes, the sunshine greeted my eyes, I looked at the ceiling and as usual my memories with Jimin flashback in my mind, This was my routine, I woke up, looked at the ceiling and remembered the days that Jimin and I were still free to love each other.

Dahyun: "I'm crying again." *Forces herself to laugh "I miss you so much Jimin-ahh please don't hate me." I said as I looked at the sky from my window. "I love you so much."

My lips parted as I saw Jimin and his members on the T.V they are all in the kitchen, I felt how my heart beat faster. His members always tell me how he's not in the mood to join them for their shows or concerts, he's always backstage, I almost got a heart attack when he looked at the screen, I think they forced him to join, I could see how he wasn't participating just standing there. I was in the kitchen getting my breakfast so that I could watch him while I was eating I heard my phone ring, I was about to get my phone when I heard what Suga said on the T.V

Suga: "Stop calling her Jimin, we're filming stop that."

I looked at my phone and saw his name, my eyes pooled with tears as I looked at him on the T.V, all the people around him were looking at him as he punched the wall, kicked a chair and walked away.

"I'm sorry." I said as tears fell from my eyes "Please don't hate me." I whispered under my breath. My managers told me to rest and have a vacation and I hadn't see him for three weeks, two to three days he started to call me, at first I accidentally answered my phone, I didn't know it was him.

*On the phone*

Jimin: "Why did you leave me Dahyun-ahh!"

My heart broke knowing that his heart is breaking because of me, I couldn't speak when he spoke.

Jimin: "All I wanted was for you to love me."

I covered my mouth so that he wouldn't know I was crying, I was hurting too but I couldn't do anything.

Jimin:"Why can't you just love me?"

I couldn't say anything so I ended the call, I hated myself for hurting him.

Two months later..

(Still Dahyun's Pov)

Today is the last day of my vacation and tomorrow I have to see him, but I'm not ready yet. What if he already hates me for hurting him twice? What if he fell out of love? What if-

"No!" I said to myself and tapped my cheek thrice. "He wouldn't do that." but what if he already- "No! he  couldn't possibly do that!" I panicked. "Why can they just let me love him!" I shouted at the top of my lungs as I threw the vase, I let myself fall from my knees. "Why can't they just let me?" I whispered to myself as I cried on the floor. It's been a long time since he has called me, I don't know what's the reason why he stopped calling me.

I looked at my phone when Tzuyu's name popped up on the screen, I immediately took my phone. Tzuyu always updated me when she saw or heard anything about Jimin 

Tzupup💖

Unnie, are you and Jimin okay now? 

My eyebrows met as I read her questions.

Tzupup💖

He looked so blooming today.

*Video*

"My baby is okay now." I whispered, I smiled as I watched the video again, my smile fades "He already forgot me." I gazed down at the floor, speechless. I should be happy now because he's already okay, he's not hurting anymore, he's not suffering now, but, why does it scare me that he's already fine without me.

The days that Dahyun were on vacation

Jimin: "I wanted to tell them....that I'm okay, I tried to pretend I am the talkative Jimin again, but the more I forced myself to be happy, the more I felt the pain that I wanted to hide from them, because I know that she's my happiness."

His members and staff didn't know what to say, even their manager that he was talking to was just looking at him. 

Jimin: "One time I joined them when they were performing(BTS) that's when I realized that every time I looked at Armys, I remember that they're the reason why I'm here, they are the reason why there's a boy group called BTS, but aside from that, I can't stop thinking to myself, that they are one of the reasons why... that I can't love Dahyun freely."

Jimin's Pov

I didn't mind them and continued what I was saying, I'm tired of keeping this pain, I want to let it out.

Jimin: "I'm always questioning myself everyday, 'What did I do to deserve this kind of pain when all I ever did was to love her?'."

I'm already tired, I'm tired of wanting her back, why did it it look so easy for her to leave me, I can fight for her, I can give everything up for her but, what did she do? She left me. She is my rest from this tiring world, but she left me too. I looked at them "Don't wait for me to cry," I forced a smile, "I'm already tired." "Even my tears are tired of falling too." I whispered. I wanted to cry because of my heart, I can feel my heart breaking again like how it broke when she gave up on me but my eyes are already tired of crying too.

I'm tired physically and emotionally all I wanted to do was rest, but how can I rest? 

*Back to Dahyun's pov*

I smiled as I met my members backstage, my vacation is already over, we have to perform later.

Dahyun: "I'm okay now, I already forgot him, see, why are you two looking at me like that? Stop looking at me like that."

Chaeyoung: "Our Dahyun is so obvious."

Dahyun: "Wait, I'm just saying that I'm already okay."

Chaeyoung: "We just keep looking at her then she keeps saying she's okay , Dahyun is pretending that she's okay."

Sana: "We can tell just by looking."

Dahyun and her members were laughing because of a joke Jeongyeon told them, when they saw BTS walking in their direction. She gulped when she saw Jimin, he loos so good in his grey v-neck shirt and black pants, but there's a difference in him, his face is emotionless and his stares are so blank and that's one thing he never did to her, he never looked at her as he passed her, she looked at the floor not believing. Dahyun turned back and watched Jimin walking away "He didn't bother to look at me." she whispered.

Tzuyu: "Umm...there's one thing I didn't tell you Dahyun-ah." Dahyun looked at Tzuyu who's avoiding her gaze.

Tzuyu: "W-when you were on vacation.." my eyebrows met as she was hesitating to say what she wanted to say.

"What is it Tzuyu?" I asked as I felt my heartbeat getting faster, I'm getting scared.

Tzuyu: "I met V backstage and he said...." she's scared to tell Dahyun. "Umm... he said Jimin.....is already tired.

Dahyun looked at Tzuyu who's hesitating to continue "Just tell me Tzuyu." Tzuyu looked at her and sighed.

Tzuyu: "And he said that Jimin is already...letting you go."

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Finally done sorry it took a while hopefully I finish and publish chapters 5 and 6 today.

Love you all~