It All Began In Autumn

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"We need to clear the air and you need to stop smelling as if we had sex or something"! He says accusingly and opens the window. "Excuse me"? I cross my arms.

He turns to face me. "It's not bad," he says apollogetically and kisses my cheek. "You just smell like pleasure and  endorphins and all that good stuff" he explains and this time he kisses my lips, not for long enough!

He pulls away and I frown. "That's it"! He says happily. "Get angry, anger smells almost as strongly as desire. Go on get pissed." He instructs. My frown sets deeper. "At what"? He shrugs. "There's many things to be angry about. The world is unfair, the sun is too bright, the wind is too strong, the colors are too vibrant, the day not long enough, the full moon won't come fast enough and the food mom made for lunch was burnt" he sticks his tongue out in disgust.

I laugh.

He frowns at me. "That's the oposite of getting angry". I roll my eyes and take a step towards him. He takes a step back. "What is so wrong about her finding out we kissed? We weren't going to do anything more. I don't want to, not until things are much more serious and certain. But kissing is fine. It's normal. In fact, kissing is great"! I say. For every step I take forward he takes one back. Until he hits the wall and there is nowhere else to go.

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"Trapped". I say teasingly and skip to him, pecking his lips and smiling. "Mom wants things to be done properly, traditionally. I need to ask your parents for permission, then we can court, or date or whatever. That's how it goes." He insists. I pout and his eyes turn down, he is sad. "Does she ever come in here"? I ask hopefully.

"No, but she doesn't have to. She will be able to smell it from a mile away. She knows you well enough to know what you smell like, she will be able to tell"! He kills my hopes. ''Mom's just know''!

"Then maybe I should get out of here"? He shakes his head and takes my hand. "I want you to stay, I want everything in here to smell like you, I want to carry your scent everywhere I go." He says and touches my bruised cheek softly.

"I should have killed him" i blink at the sudden change in conversation."Way to kill the mood"! I whine and sit on the desk chair.

"Remember that sweater you lost last month"? I look up to find him holding it. "You stole it"? I ask and jump. "It is my favorite one" I growl and lunge for him. He avoids me easily, leaves the room and runs down the stairs. I run after him chasing him around the house the way him and Nakai hunt each other in the woods.

He manages to hide the sweater before I catch him.

"I can give you a different one. I really like this one" i try to negotiate. "That's why I want that one. Because you wore it more often and it smells like you more"! He explains half an hour later, as we eat some leftover pancakes from their breakfast.

I eat my own with honey and blueberries while he drowns his own in maple syroup.

"Weird". I comment but he waves the comment off before he suddenly runs up the stairs and reappears a moment later holding one of his own clothing pieces. A tshirt I've seen him wear countless times. "Here, you can have this as a pledge''.

"Right" i say with a risen brow as I take the shirt from him. The fabric is soft and really does smell like him. "This is weird". I repeat.

"This is essential so that other males know you chose me. If you smell like me you are with me. That's how it goes"! He states.

I attempt to talk about the fact that there are no more werewolves here. but he keeps babbling the way he always does.

"That's a temporary solution, until we can officialy date and then the more time we spend together the more our scents will mix. You now smell more like Joanathan than anything." He realises what he said only after he says it. His eyes widen and I bite my lip.

"Sorry". I shake my head. "No it makes sense, it's fine. Does it bother you"? I ask and he nods hesitantly. I dip my chin undesrstanding.

"Okay." "Okay".

I head back to my own house before the Cliffords get back. i manage to convince Noah he doesn't need to escort me back.

On the way back I think about Jonathan. I liked the idea of him more than I did himself. I flirted with the idea of a boyfriend for awhile but somehow every time I imagine myself with someone it was with Noah, even further back, before I knew him, blue eyes were in my dreams.

Jonathan was indifferent, he was good company but bored after a while, conversation was hard and he prefered to watch movies because there wasn't much talking involved. We spent a year having the title of gf and bf without a real relationship to back the titles up. He was the one to initiate contact, kissing or any sort of touching, but it was usually short lived and more for the eyes of the world I realise now.

He got jealous and would throw it in my face whenever I spent time with the Cliffords. He didn't like Noah and Nakai.

Thinking back at it, the relationship was bound to fall apart. I just wish it was under better circumstances.

When I get home, I tell mom everything. I want her to trust me, being truthful is the way to do that. I tell her about Jonathan and I also tell her about Noah.

She kisses my brow and softly tells me, she wants me to be happy. But she can't help but add that Noah and I will give her beautiful grandchildren.

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I almost forgot to update😂 I don't know if anyone is reading this but have a good day random person. Thank you for being here💙