His Irresistible Ways

Chapter 10 ☽

Chapter 10 ●

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     I gasped and stepped back, still with my eyes locked on his. The space between us was completely stopped and it seemed like everything around us had slowed down. The lights slowly passed and left their tracks on that man, every second that passed.

      I understand why he's like this now, in shock. I would never let this happen, if I were a teacher. I would not feel good, ethically or morally. And the fact that he sees me a few times a week in his own class, makes things even more difficult. It is a constant reminder of his words, his actions, and the way and where he touched me will always stay in his memory as he continues seeing me.

"I am so sorry, I didn't know it was yo-"

"It's fine."- I lifted a hand and ran it through my hair, trying to ease my nervousness.- "Hmm- I have to go now."- I suppressed my lips and stepped back once again.

     I was determined to go away. I enjoyed those minutes, and definitely envy that girl that he was with, but now I'm back to reality. He is my professor. He didn't know it was me. He would never do that to me if he knew. I am already really lucky that he knows my name.

"Miss-" - Mr. Storm took a step forward, his eyes still large.

"It's okay, really. Don't worry about it."- I offered him a weak smile and turned my back to him, not hesitating a moment to go out of his field of view.

I don't know what's happening to me but, strangely, seeing Derek became too painful for me. It seems that someone up there is mocking me.

      First, I find out that my new professor of Understanding Architecture is the man that I have been dreaming about since... as long as I can remember, physically, maybe even better. You can't have him, someone in my mind said. Then those occasional look meetings. You still can't have him. Then, the way he irritated and mocked me when he forced me to do the paper, because I had arrived 10 minutes late to his class. Don't even think about him. The fact that he was so close but so far, the challenge. Don't you dare. And then someone remembered to blind him momentarily and throw me into his arms one night. He touched me, kissed my neck. He said things I never thought I would hear, especially from him. You will not have him.

      And I won't have him, I know perfectly well that. What's going on? Who is providing such amount of their own time to try to destroy my heart and my mind? Why don't you leave me alone?

      I never thought I would say this... but I miss Mr. Morgan. That old man, even more bad-tempered and impertinent than Mr. Storm, his repellent voice, his attitude and the way his horrible personality scared the hell out of me. Now that I think about it, my first year in college with him was very good. Of course I spent my life running away from him, but at least both my heart and my mind agreed with that decision. While with Mr. Storm my brain wants to run away and avoid problems, whilst my heart just wants to go to him.

      I took a deep breath and tried to walk through the crowd as they danced to reach the bar hoping to find Mary.

   I'm exaggerating, so, so much. Me and the professor don't have anything! This was just a coincidence... A very malicious one. I can't think, I can't think in him. He's just a stranger, a complete stranger who spoke to me only a few times... Nothing more. Just forget it, Jen.

      I shook slightly my head and tried to drive such thoughts out of mind.

      I approached the counter and tried to attract the bartender's attention, as Mary didn't seem to want to appear.- "Sorry, did you see-" -I suppressed my lips.- "a brown haired girl in a green dress...?"- I awkwardly asked with a smile on my face.