room 317//kuroken

28

as i took everything that reminded me of you out of my room i felt a twinge if sadness in my heart. three months had passed since that night and as i sat in my bed looking down at my hands i realized i was still wearing the rings you've bought me. i looked at the silver band with the red stone on it. slowly sliding it off my finger i held it in the palm of my hand and studied it. i rolled it around my palm and saw something on the inside of the ring,
"you and me always forever"

i ran a finger over the engraving. with my eyes closed i let a few tears fall as i cling to the piece of metal in my hands. i looked at the sad piece of metal and put it in the box that held everything of kuroos. i walked through the neighborhood with the box in my hands. the route was all too familiar to me, the cracks in the sidewalk were still the same. i stopped across the street and looked up into that oh so familiar window, it was early on a saturday so i figured you be sleeping. i crosses the street with the box that held all 23 months we had spent together, the walk felt sad and heavy. i kneeled down and left the box at your doorstep as i got up and turned around we met eyes. you looked as beautiful as you did the day i met you in room 317. your eyes looked into my eyes, i gave you a small smile and walked the same path i came from. you called out my name but i knew if i turned and faced you it would only hurt me. i left all of you that u had there on your front porch on july 30th at 7:56 AM in hopes of fixing the damage you created. i turned around and saw you behind me i took a deep breath and said

"you and me always forever"

your eyes held sadness within them and it made my heart hurt for you but you weren't mines to feel for anymore with one last look i told you

"forever wasn't with you kuroo and i'm sorry i wasn't worth it to you. i hope you have a nice rest of the year see you when school starts in the fall."

you yelled out for me to wait that you wanted to speak but i kept on walking down the street with my heart in my hands. the last thought i had when i left his house was

"i'm sorry i wasn't enough for you"

and with that thought i left kuroo standing there with tears in his eyes hoping that he finally felt the same pain i did.