I torture myself everyday
The pain is overwhelming,
But I can't get it to go away.
I'm drowning,
I try to be strong like always,
But I think it makes it worse.
There's no takes backs or fingers crossed
No magic crystal to change fate
Just me, my choices, and memories;
The memories are most haunting:
Are they
Real or not real?
I have no one to ask
No one to turn to
The dreams feel like a knife,
But I don't want them to go
My heart is shattered
I'm losing myself
I'm slipping and have nothing to grasp at
I'm angry and depressed and isolated
I know the signs are there,
But I don't care
I'm falling.
The question now is: will I sink
Or fly?
