Chapter 11
Lily's POV
I held both Niall's and dads hands not wanting to let go of either. But knowing I will have to at one point. "Dad?" I say through the tears. "Dad, if you can hear me please, please don't go yet. There is so much I need to tell you, there is so much I should've told you and done with you. Like, remember at Sarah's wedding when you wanted to dance with me and I said I don't dance, then half an hour later I was on the dance floor with Melissa. I saw your face and all I wanted to do was say I was sorry. I think you may of thought that I was ashamed to been seen with you. But please, please don't ever think that! I can never be ashamed of someone like you. You have taught me so much dad, and there is still so much I need to learn. Please don't leave me. I need you." That was the last thing I managed to say before absolutely breaking down in tears. Niall was being really great though trying to comfort me. I could also see that there were tears welling up in his eyes. I looked back at my father and realised just how much I need him to be around. I don't think I'd be able to live without him.
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It's been two weeks since we pulled the plug. I was now standing on a patch of grass wearing all black, forcing the tears back down. I never thought this day would come so early. The day I would bury my father. Rhys, Hugh, Mum and I were all standing together holding hands. Mum was already balling her eyes out and the boys seemed close behind her. I reached out my empty hand for Niall. This was his last week here in Australia before he started touring again. This last month has been hard on both of us. Neither of us thought this would be how we spend our holidays. I felt sorry for Niall that he had to deal with so much grief when he was meant to be having fun. But no matter how hard I tried to say that he didn't need to be by my side for any of this, he just wouldn't budge.
As the priest gave the final ok, my father was lowered into the ground. As I watched I couldn't hold back the tears any longer. This was the last time I'd see him for a long time.
