to catch a fleeting moment

you could be my sunshine even when it's grey

the day i said i loved you, plants sprouted from your veins / it's hard to know just what that meant, especially when those plants grew spikes / and then you grew further away / this was the sound of things starting / the sound of things pulling away

you told me as you packed your bags, that you were leaving to find yourself, to love yourself / i didn't know what to say / if i was selfish i would've asked you to never leave me / but i had watched the plants burried in your veins prickle with thorns piercing and pulling your skin for far too long, creating scars on scars on scars / i couldn't put my sanity above your happiness / even if your happiness meant ultimately i wouldn't live to see the next day

you're the biggest and brightest this place had ever made / and i can't live with myself long enough to ask you to stay / i just wish you could've continued to be my sunshine / even when the clouds in the sky held grey / but i watched those brown eyes with dreams of blue skies filled with pretty lies, walk away / i wish i could've forgiven myself for that day / but i'm not sure i feel much of anything anymore -to- forgive

it was hard to live with everything you left behind / but i think as long as i keep thinking you're up on some enchanted shore / whisking days astray / watering and pruning nasty thorns away / with a view of the pretty blue sky / well i think / i just might not mind