𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐘𝐔𝐍𝐎𝐇.

𝐛𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐮𝐩

breaking up with jaehyun.
[warning: incoherent words]

you sighed for the nth time today, reading the same line over and over again, attempting to memorize the important parts for your upcoming exam week. the grumble of your stomach and loud chatter from the persons next to you is not helping you at all, especially the throbbing pain in your head

the soft buzz of your phone distracted your from your book. 7:00, its says. yes, it's weird for some people to set an alarm for errands but you like to keep your self organized and one of them is your time management that you value the most. you packed your stuff and left the coffee shop

walking home with your earpods stuck in your ears kinda relieved your migraine but your stomach is still grumbling out of hunger. the only thing you had was a piece of oat cookie and a cup of iced americano a few hours ago

opening your shared apartment door, you find your boyfriend, jaehyun, laying comfortably on the sofa watching tv with a bag of chips secured in his arm. it has always been like this everytime she comes home

jaehyun is a freelance music producer, he doesn't have the most stable job in the world but he still makes money from commissions but it's not big. you never complained because it's his passion, you never forced him to get a better job because you don't want to look down on him. he's a good human being but his outlook on both of your future is not the same as yours, you're not in the picture in his dreams. it's always about him

"hi" you said in a small voice after removing your shoes, he just nodded, focusing more on the sitcom playing in the tv

you took off your coat and headed straight to the kitchen, expecting for food or even left-overs from last night

"aren't there any food left?"

you waited for his reply as you opened the cupboard, expecting for atleast a pack of ramen but much to your avail, there's none

"hmm?"

"i said, do we still have food? i'm tired and starving"

"i think there's cereal somewhere" jaehyun didn't even bother to look at you as he replied

you licked your lips, calming yourself because you don't have the energy to fight with him

it already became a routine, you both release your stress out on each other and you end up fighting. you sometimes think that your relationship is not going in the right direction

you found the cereal box and poured yourself a some in a bowl. opening the fridge for the milk, you noticed that the box felt empty

there are days when you let it slip away but today is not the day

"what the hell. why do you even put an empty box of milk back inside the fridge!? you're so stupid!" you threw the empty box on the floor makinh jaehyun stand up from the sofa

"calm down the neighbors are going to hear you" he said in a chill tone

"no don't tell me to fcking calm down! i'm so tired of this shit! every day jaehyun! every fckin day i come home tired and stressed and hungry to see you being chill without doing anything! don't you have any responsibility in this place!? is it always gonna be me!? for fcks sake am i still even your girlfriend?"

"of course you what are you talking about!" he walks over to you but you cut him off

"then treat me like your motherfckin girlfriend! i am not your maid! it's so unfair that i am the only one who's been working hard to pay for the bills-"

"so you're saying that i'm not working hard enough? huh? you spend so much time outside that you don't even know what's going on with me and my career" jaehyun fumes in anger

you let out a chuckle while crossing your arms on you chest "yeah let's see, what happened with your passion? huh? did you won a grammy now?" you clapped slowly with sarcasm

jaehyun remained still on his feet, looking at you with amger and disappointed. for the first time, he felt small

"that's the problem here, you're all about passion passion passion. you're not going anywhere with your passion if your always slacking off"

jaehyun's knuckles are turning white as he clenched his fist tightly

"you're getting out of the line y/n"

"why? does the truth hurt you huh? everything's not about you jaehyun, heck, am i still even in the picture? it seems like i'm not included in your life anymore these days"

at this point, you're red eyes are already shedding hot angry tears from the stress, hunger, anxiety and pain.

and you want it to stop

"i think it's better if we end this"

jaehyun's head snaps up when he heard your words, blinking his eyes as if he heard your words wrong

"n-no don't do this y/n-ah" he stuttered

"i'm tired and it's not working well for the both of us anymore. we're both hurting each other" you maintained your tears, you sat lifelessly on the stool trying hard not to break down

but jaehyun beat you to it

he held your hands as he knelt on the floor. he's crying

"no, i will do betyer, if you want i'll look for another job just please don't leave me y/n" he sobbed through your shaking hands

you swallowed the lump on your throat

"i will still pay for my half in this month's bill and i will still check up on you"

"n-no don't do this please, we'll work through this" jaehyun shook his head in disapproval

"jaehyun it's for the best, just think of this as a break for us to be better persons"

"i love you so much y/n" he looks at you with his red eyes "we can become better persons together"

"yes, together. apart. i hope you can understand that"

he stared at you dumbfounded, still on the floor

you stood up and quickly grab your bag and coat. you decided to stay in your sister's place for the mean time

with a final look on jaehyun's figure, you shed a tear

"jaehyun-ah, always remember that i love you okay?"

with that last words, you closed the door.

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