Dear Diary,
There was always something mysterious about him.
He didn't hurt me, even though he always threatened to. I somehow knew those threats were empty. Maybe it was because I knew I was under HIS protection...
One day, he asked me questions about human life. He began to ask how it worked, what living in their world is like... But he also always seemed to ask a question about emotions. It wasn't until he made me angry one day and I slapped him that I understood: This man has no emotions. He didn't so much as flinch and what was worse, he seemed to completely dismiss what I did to him and continued on with his duties given to him by Aizen.
Some may call that numbness to emotion and pain. Some call it STRENGTH, but I call it a WEAKNESS of the HEART. How does one know to stop if they don't feel pain? How does one know when they're sad? Angry? Upset? Scared?... How does someone without emotions know they're in love? Can they even fall in love?
The more I began to wonder about these things, the more I sympathized with the Espada. The day Ichigo came to save me, I was so excited but I also felt a little bit of sadness in my heart. Because although he was the one who took me in the first place, I agreed to it. I wanted to protect my friends. And while I thought I was protecting them, it dawned on me that I had actually began to like him, the Espada. A hollow. Like the monster that controlled my brother once.
I began to slightly dread the moment I had to leave... Never did I think what happened that day would happen to him. Ichigo died in front of my eyes, yet, when I called for Ichigo... Ichigo SAVED ME! But at what expense?! I lost HIM! I lost Ulquiorra in the process! And it was all my fault! I didn't want Ichigo to die but I didn't think Ulquiorra would have to die for me to save the man I was in love with. The man I loved. The man who basically hadn't noticed me until Rukia came along. I owe my friendship with Ichigo to Rukia and the death of Ulquiorra is on-
IT'S ON ME! I KILLED HIM! I MURDERED THE MAN THAT LOVED ME! I killed the man that I grew to love... Yes. I grew to love him. Because everyone deserves to be loved!
Forgive me Ulquiorra.
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... forgive me.
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The Diary of Orihime Inoue
FanficThese short stories serve as excerpts of what I believe to be entries Orihime Inoue would right in her diary. The Diary of Orihime Inoue is a collection of recollections she has had or possible moments that may not have been experienced in the anime...
