Not Enough Flowers to Give

An Unsavory Day

TW ; Gay (duh), Depressed thoughts, sad Roman :(, Suicide thoughts at the ending.

Roman woke up to Patton shaking him awake. "Roman, kiddo. It's time for breakfast!" Patton exclaimed. Roman yawned, stretching his arms out behind his head. "Let me get dressed, i'll be down soon, Padre!" Roman said with a lot of energy, yet he wasn't feeling any of it. "A-Okay, kiddo!" Patton practically yelled as he left the Creative Side's room.

As soon as he was alone, Roman slowly undressed in front of the mirror. In it, he started seeing all his faults. Of course, Roman has always felt insecure, but he figured that the flower he gave to Virgil was making it a lot worse. Roman wasn't perfect. Never even thought he was for a second even if he made everybody else believe that. He was still tired, so he just snapped on his princely suit, which he didn't feel like he deserved it, and went into the bathroom to get some makeup onto his face. 

Roman put on makeup daily; it wasn't new. He had freckles all over his face, and now he had some eye bags that could rival Virgil's daily eyeshadow. And win! He picked up his concealer and foundation, and had applied it evenly, making sure no trace of freckles and eye bags were there. After he had finished, he fought the urge to harm himself. If he started, who knew when he would stop. He then put on his boots; he mainly wore them because he was the shortest of all sides, but he had to be a prince! Princes were tall and masculine (nono sister we dont stan toxic masculinity :<), not fat and short! 

As Roman jumped down the stairs with the energy he didn't have, he was met with Patton finishing up breakfast. "There you are kiddo! Everybody else is sitting at the table!" Patton pointed out, as if Roman didn't see them. "Alright, Patton-Cake!" Roman said excitedly, followed by a giggle. "What. Was. THAT!?" Janus screamed. "That was the cutest thing ever." Logan said in a matter-of-factly way. Patton squealed, followed by a small chuckle from Virgil as he had his arms wrapped around Patt's neck. Roman turned a bright red, perfectly matching his sash, as he pulled out his chair to sit down. However, the neutrality was soon squashed like a bug. Fast. Roman knew princes didn't giggle. He soon was passed a plate of pancakes, and almost puked at the sight of food. Janus glanced at Roman. "Roman, aren't you going to eat?" Roman jumped when he heard Janus speak. "U-Uh, I just realized I'm not hungry! I may or may not have gotten a few midnight snacks! Anyway, it doesn't seem to be any of your concern, Lie-ma Bean." Roman said quickly as he sank out of the dining room.

Roman quickly got out his dagger, which held many red rubies on the handle. He thought he would do without it, but he was wrong. Then he heard a knock on the door. He put down the dagger and opened the door to see a distressed Patton, who looked panicked. "You alright, Padre?" Roman questioned slowly. "Y-Yeah j-just having a-a b-" Patton tried to speak, but kept stuttering and Roman easily knew this was a panic attack, as he has had many. He ran across his room and grabbed a rose. He then ran over to Patton and gave him the rose. Almost immediately, Patton stopped panicking. "Thank you so much, Roman... I'm so sorry!" Patton chuckled nervously. "No problem, you needed it padre." Roman said as he walked back into his room, feeling a familiar exhaustion rush over him. He decided to not cut himself, seeing as he was about to pass out. He lied down on his bed, and slowly but surely drifted to sleep with oddly comforting thoughts about suicide.  

A/N

Hello! It's the author, but you can just call me Alexis! Anyway, i am so sorry for not posting in a while. I had MAJOR writers block, and i couldn't bring myself to do anything recently for matters i will not share! Thank you guys for reading though! Sorry this chapter was short, the next one will most likely be 1000 words like the previous one! Sorry for the inconvenience!!!