The Wall and The Flower

Chapter 10: The Icebreaker.

Edited to the best of my abilities.

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"What if they say that something is wrong?" Melanie asked nervously in her chair.

"Are you having any complications?" I asked tiredly, we were currently at the OGBYN and Melanie was constantly thinking negatively. I mean I know she's never had a baby before but damn she really needed to chill before I left her ass here.

"No.." she said sinking into her chair knowing what was coming next.

"Well hush up." I patted her thigh.

"Melanie Smith?" A nurse called, we both stood up and followed the nurses lead into a room.

"Just wait here and your doctor will be with you in a moment." The nurse instructed once she was done checking Melanie out. Stefan got the news that Melanie was pregnant and gave me the rest of the day off to be with her.

Once done with Melanie's ultrasound appointment we went to go get lunch. Melanie has basically ordered the whole damn menu.

"What? I'm eating for two now." She said in response to the deadpan look I was giving her.

"I'm so glad everything is good now I know I don't have to worry." She exhaled. I couldn't understand why Melanie was so worried, maybe I didn't understand because I wasn't the one carrying a life.

"Mel please stop worrying. You know stress is not good for the baby especially when it's unnecessary."

"I've had a miscarriage before Crystal"

"What?" I said completely shocked.

"Yeah, I was pregnant a year and a half ago. At the time I wasn't ready for a baby and Jaheem was so excited, I was so angry with him, angry at myself, the world. Anyways I was stressed I had a lot on my plate, and then I was dealing with complications which had me feeling like shit everyday. One night Jaheem and I got into a really bad fight and he left i was so angry at home, honestly I can't even remember what the fight was about. I'd went to use the bathroom later on and that's when I saw the blood, I rushed myself to the hospital and got the news..."

"Mel I am so sorry, no wonder you're so worried. Why didn't you tell me?" I was honestly a bit hurt as selfish as it sounded, I mean I'm her sister I should've been there for her. Or at least given the chance to be

"It's embarrassing Crystal, I didn't want people to feel sorry for me, I didn't want the baby to begin with and as horrible as it sounds at the time when I received the news I was sad because I knew how much Jaheem wanted a baby but I also was...grateful. And I know that sounds bad but I was sick all the time, I wasn't sleeping, I was moodier than usual. I didn't want to go through nine months of that. And I felt and feel horrible that I felt that way." She explained.

"Why be embarrassed?" Her loosing the baby was not her fault.

"Because, even though I wasn't ready, I wasn't able to do what my body was designed for. I knew I eventually wanted children but would I have the same issues? Would I have to adopt? Get a surrogate? Trust me I've had so many battles with myself little sis. So there you have it, that's why I've been going crazy about this baby."

"And then when I found out I was pregnant i couldn't believe it, I was scared because I still felt that I wasn't ready...but, for me to be pregnant again. It's gotta be a sign."

"Don't worry. You're having this baby and with no complications." I said grabbing her hand across the table.

"Are you trying to make me ugly cry?"