Can I Finally Be Happy?? (FemDeku Dadzawa) (adopted And Discontinued)

chapter 10

my sister (Aly_TodoDeku12) just called me a virgin writer because i didnt know how to start this off >~<

izukus pov

i woke up to llight coming into my bedroom. 'when did i get here?' i thounght to my self. i sigh and get up and take a shower and get dressed into a green oversized hoodie and black leggings. i look at the clock '7:30 am why so early... whatever im going to go make breakfast' i though and with that i left my dormroom and when to the kitchen. i decided that i was going to make some pancakes and started getting the things i needed wile singing a song i heard a few days ago 

(the song is called "count" by lottie hartnack if you want to listen to the song)

"She wears, long sleeves, baggy clothes, keeps her eyes locked on the ground
Hides her face, no one knows that her world is falling down
Once queen bee, but then her crown fell
She had no enemies but herself
Come to lunch and you'll find her sitting in a bathroom stall
She's dancing on the edge, she's scared she's gonna fall
She's clinging on now, but tiring every day
Wondering what it would be like to take her hands away"

while she was singing she didnt realise that her dad, hitoshi, 'zashi, hawks and kacchan were outside the kichen at the island listening to her singing not knowing what the song was about.

"So she counts
Five seconds, breathe it through, then you'll start to count again
Four seconds, count the reasons why today is not the end
Three seconds, breath
Two seconds, doubt
The last second filled with pain, don't you dare give up now

Five seconds, breathe it through, then you'll start to count again
Four seconds, count the reasons why today is not the end
Three seconds, breath
Two seconds, doubt
The last second she let go, and started falling down"

her dad, hitoshi, kacchan, hawks and 'zashi had tears in their eyes realising what the song is about and were worried about her.

"He had, the perfect hair, perfect body, perfect face, and perfect smile
Perfect diet, always at the gym to run the extra mile
But when he got home, he'd leave the water on
And only turn it off when all his body fears were gone
He was loved and admired, by all that he knew
Always helping and giving, never nasty or rude
When he looked into the mirror, that's not what he'd see
Wish he could smash the looking glass and be free

Five seconds, breathe it through, then you'll start to count again
Four seconds, count the reasons why today is not the end
Three seconds, breath
Two seconds, doubt
The last second filled with pain, don't you dare give up now

Five seconds, breathe it through, then you'll start to count again
Four seconds, count the reasons why today is not the end
Three seconds, breath
Two seconds, doubt
The last second he found strength to pull himself back out

I know it's hard, I know you wish it wasn't you
I know sometimes you feel like you can't make it through
I know sometimes you feel like nobody would know
If you just disappeared, I know you feel alone
But you can't have a sunrise without the night
You're getting stronger every day, you have to fight
So don't you dare let go before you see the sun
Your time's not done

Five seconds, breathe it through, then you'll start to count again
Four seconds, count the reasons why today is not the end
Three seconds, breath
Two seconds now
The last second push away that pain, push away your doubt