Smiling is a Coverup(Depressed Blueberry sans)

Chapter 2 - Bad Sans Group

I wake up on the floor with puzzles scattered out. I look at my alarm clock and saw that I slept through it! I hurry up and cleaned the terrible mess I made then hurriedly fix my clothes. *bing* I grab my phone and saw a text from Ink.
Text Message:
Ink - Hello? Blue are u there? Can you call me when ur not busy its urgent!

I also saw other text messages from him asking if I was there. I call him and wait for hi- "BLUE!" nevermind. "Yes Ink? What's going on?" I say innocently pretending not to hear fighting in the background. "Blue! Thank god you called, hurry to our base, they found it!" Ink said in a worried tone. "Ok!" And that's the last thing I said when he hung up on me. I made a portal and went through it. I appeared in between Dream and Nightmare. "S-Oops!" I said almost saying a certain word I won't describe...
I ran next to Dream, me standing in the middle of Dream and ink. I see Ink injured in a few places and Dream. "Are you guys ok!?" I said this  concerned and worried, hoping I made it in time. "Yeah we are fine, just a few scratches!" Dream stated while smiling. "Pathetic. Stupid. Lazy. You couldn't even make it in time. You shouldn't even slept, u should've just stayed awake. You were slacking off  while they were fighting. You idiot. I tremble a little bit, hearing those words, hearing my own thoughts hurting me. "Blue!" Dream yelled my name.

I got punched in the face by Killer.  I fell onto my bottom but quickly got up. I throw a bone at Killer and he dodged it. I kept sending them his way but he dodges them swiftly, like it was nothing...weak, absolutely weak. I felt myself wanting to cry, feeling little angry that I felt so...weak...I hated feeling like that. I see Killer's expression go to shock. I didnt understand, why? Then I realized my bones were faster than normal, a little sharper. Nightmare looked at me, he looked uncomfortable. Why? During me and Killer fighting, I hit him a few times. I didnt mean to but....I didnt stop myself. I also had my guard down, he just noticing. Backed up and teleported behind me. He stabbed my shoulder, I turned around and shoved him. He fell, I quickly pinned his legs down using my legs. He looked.....scared? Pffft, why? I'm surprised I did this. He also thinks your weak. They ALL do. That's why they always take the hits for you, that's why they let you be the healer most of the time, that's why the bad guys kept ink and dream busy. To attack the WEAK one. I punched him, again, again, again, and again. I felt mad, angry, or even pissed. I work and train all the time! Why the hell do I keep thinking how weak I was? I'm NOT. I felt myself get thrown off of killer. I'm guessing it was Nightmare or Error. I get up and saw Dust stab my good shoulder. I throw a bone at him and he just dodged it like it was nothing. Killer did the same. It shows how pathetic you are. Dust throws a sharp bone at me and I ducked down, grab where his spine is then throw him onto the ground. I quickly appear a bone and hit his ribcage with it. *cough, cough* I see him cough up blood a little bit. Oops, I guess I hit too hard. He opens his eyes and his face turned into shock. Again? Killer then Dust too. Do I got something on my face? "Retreat!" I hear Nightmare yelled. Dust pushed me off and teleported away. And everyone else did too, except for Dream and Ink. "Blue!" I hear Dream shout my name out. I ran to them. "Are you guys ok!?"

I ask them concerned about the injuries. "We are fine, but what about you?" Ink says, changing the subject. Or trying too. "I'm going to heal you guys! No objections!" I faked a smile and giggle. You're so weak that they even waste their effort on asking about you. I feel like a burden to them. You are and a waste of space. I heal them fast as I could. After they were done being healed I make a portal to my AU. "Wait Blue!" I hear Ink call out. "Hm?" I don't wanna waste my weak words on them. Yes weak. "Aren't you gonna heal yourself?" Ink questions me. Dream looks worried.

"Yeah..when I get home." I say it slowly, deciding if I should or not. I wave goodbye at them and they did the same. I jump into the portal and landed on my bed. I should get to tra- you complete utter fool. Alphys doesn't care about your "training" it's too stall time. Keep you busy so she could go do something more important when your done. You shouldn't waste her time. "W-what..?" I ask myself, quietly. Wondering why I would think of such thing. I take off my gloves and boots. My thoughts are correct though...I am wasting her time. I start crying silently, not wanting my brother to hear me if he was here. I take off the shoulder and knee pads, then take off my shirt. I heal myself slowly, feeling already drained from using so much magic.

After healing myself I put on a new grey shirt and I put on a old jacket I never wore. "I should stop wasting everyone's time..." I say to myself quietly, barely audible. I keep crying, bringing my knees up to my chest. What's the point of  training if  your never going to be in the royal guard. What's the POINT of  being lazy if you could being out doing something like everyone else. My thoughts start to confuse my, although I know exactly what it means. I put on my boots, pull my hood up, untie my scarf that was shaped like a bowtie and rap it around my neck up to my mouth then finally, put my hands in my pockets. I teleported outside and take a walk in the forest. Wandering around, not knowing where I'm going...