Smiling is a Coverup(Depressed Blueberry sans)

Chapter 9 - Uncomfortable

I rub my arm, standing awkwardly. I didnt know what to say. "Don't you trust me bro?" Papy says in a hurtful tone. I grip onto my arm hard. I shouldn't have said anything. "Yes! Of course I do!" I said looking at him. "Then why didn't you tell me..?" He says. I look into his eyes, ( eyes? Eye sockets? I didnt know what to call them) He looked sad. "I-I..." Disappointing. Everything you worked so hard to make things work. It failed. Your existence isnt needed, you absolute waste of spa- "Blue, it's ok to now. We know the truth and we can work this out." Ink says with a smile on his face. Right. We can try again. I take a deep breath and hugged myself gently.

"I-I'm sorry Papy. I wanted many times tell yo-" lies. ".....No, I was a coward." I said. "Br-" "NO." I interrupted Papy. "Papyrus, I felt weak and stupid. I worked harder and stayed up a lot. Only having about 4 hours of sleep. I'm sorry that I wasn't as great as I looked." I said as I cried. Papy looked shocked and Ink looked a little sad. "And honestly..." I felt angry, I wanted to let my brother know what I'm feeling and Ink too. They really should know. "Honestly, hated both of you guys out of jealously. (Wow, plot twist) I admired you Papy because you were so fucking famous and-and you didn't do anything! You were always lazy and only sitting around at Muffet's! BUT, people still loved you and I hated that.......I worked hard to get into a position that I KNEW I wouldn't get into." I cried more as I let out my frustration. They both look at me with a mix of sad, guilt, and shock.

"And Ink, I admired you because everyone loved you! You have great friends and your so-so...lovable!!! Like- why does everyone put up with me!?" I started crying more, my hands clenched into a fist as my frustration starts washing away. "I know I'm annoying, so why do you guys don't tell me to shut up? Why do I seem so fragile to you-you g-guys." I start to quiet down. Nothing left to say? I was a little out of breath, I feel so shaky and lightheaded. I needed fresh air. I teleported to a universe. Didn't know which one, my mind was clouded. Just left them to all your insults stabbed right into them. I was where a Sans and a Frisk would meet. I sat down on the ground staring to who knows where. But then...I slowly lay down on the snowy ground. Feeling restless.

My vision begans to fade.......