II: Good-Bye Agony (MMVT Sequel)

I'm Sorry Blair....

-2 Months Later-

I sighed and rolled over in my bed as Grace started crying again. That's the third time tonight... I thought babies stopped waking up in the middle of the night a few week after they were born, I guess I was wrong... I wiped my eyes and headed to her room then picked her up.
"Shh baby shh... It's OK, daddy's here. Don't cry." I cooed softly into her ear as I walked around the room with her.
I don't think I can take this anymore... Not on my own. I'm losing sleep, I can't focus during the day... And my manager told me straight up, if I don't have anyone to look after Grace then i'll have to stay home and take care of her while the guys go on tour. And another thing that sucks is that I can't go out partying or hang-out with everyone anymore, I can't drink, and if I do I have to be careful not to drink to much... To be totally honest, I miss those days... I really do...
I rubbed my head and put Grace back to bed then went back to my room. I sat down and rubbed my eyes... I really wish Blair were still here with me, i'd give anything just to have her in my arms again and talk to her. But...
"Ashley....?" A voice whispered in front of me.
I immediately felt a cold spot appear in front of me as well. I blinked and looked up to see a faint silhouette of Blair. I jumped and stood up, meeting her eyes. She smiled softly and wrapped her arms around me.
"You never talk to me anymore.... You act like I don't exist." She sighed sadly.
I shook my head and pulled myself away from her. "I'm just dreaming... You aren't real, ghosts and spirits don't exist... They're all fake.." I muttered.
I looked down at her to see her wide-eyed.
"H-How can you say that..? Remember that date we went on! Everything that happened there surely couldn't have happened due to a small gust of wind! There wasn't even any wind in the house at the time!" She exclaimed, tearing up.
"B-Blair.... I-I'm so... Sorry..." I looked down then sighed.
"I saw you taking care of Grace... You're such a great father." She smiled softly then sat on the bed.
I sighed again then sat down with her. "Blair... I-I can't do this any more... I just can't... The baby is just to much for me..." I reached over and placed my hand on her transparent one. "I'm so sorry..."
"It's OK Ash... I understand.." She said softly and rested her head in the crook of my neck. "Just.. Do what you think it right... I'll still be with you, her, and the guys. I made a promise to protect you guys, I intend on keeping that promise." She said softly.
I looked at her then nodded. "I'm sorry... Please forgive me for my choice Blair."
She nodded and laid down with me. I gently wrapped my arms around her then slowly fell asleep with her in my arms.

-The Next Day-

I sat there, packing up a small keep-sake box for Grace. I placed a couple pairs of clothes in it, a picture of her, the guys, and I, and that bracelet Dahvie and Jayy gave her... After the little conversation Blair and I had last night, I had decided to do the right thing, for both Grace and myself... I'm putting Grace up for adoption, she needs someone way better than I could ever truly be.
"Ash... Are you sure about this...?" Andy asked as he carried Grace in his arms.
"It's for the best Andy... I can't do this..." I replied in a mono-toned voice.
"You can do it Ash... I did it, so can you."
I growled and stared at him. "You have a wife Andy! She can stay home and take care of your kid while you're on tour and vise versa! I don't have a wife anymore! I... I killed my wife.." I whispered then quickly turned away.
"Ashley... You didn't kill your wife... It was just an accident... You couldn't prevent what happened..." He said softly then looked down at Grace, who started to giggled and babble.
I watched them and smiled a little then picked up the box and headed out to the car. Andy followed and strapped Grace into her seat.
"You don't have to do this... You can always change your mind.." He said as he gripped my shoulder.
I shook my head and looked at him. "I made my decision Andy... I'm sorry.." I muttered and rolled up the window as I drove off.

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I walked into the adoption agency and walked up to the front desk.
"Can I help you?" The woman behind the desk asked kindly.
I nodded then looked down at Grace. "I... Um.."
"You want to put this child up for adoption?"
I nodded again then sighed. "I can't take care of her... After I lost my wife I just..."
"I understand. I'm sorry for your loss... It's probably best for you and the child.. No worry sir, she'll be in excellent hands." She smiled then gently took Grace from my out-stretched arms.
I smiled softly then placed the box on the desk. "Please make sure she keeps up with this, the bracelet especially... And please make sure she's given to the best family there is... Take good care of her... And when she's 14, tell her that Ashley Purdy was her real father, or tell her the day she's adopted... That's all I ask."
The lady nodded and picked up the box.
"I'll be sure to do so Mr. Purdy." She said then walked to the back.
As I watched her leave, a tear slowly fell from my eye... I was going to miss her... But this was the choice I had to make, she'll have a much better life here then with me...