Chapter 4-Depression

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T/W:Self harm and Sucidial Thoughts

Jonny hasn't been outside for weeks:he hasn't seen  anybody since the incident.It's still been carrying on and he felt like nobody really cares about him.He has had no appetite;he felt guilt-ridden,hopeless and had suicidal thoughts.He spent hours daily crying in the bathroom.He had low-self esteem and had continued low moods.

He found a knife next to the toaster so he stole it.He was desperate to just punish himself(even though none of it was his fault).He liked his skin just sliced and his arm bled.Nobody was here to see this and when it stopped bleeding,he covered up.His brain was overwhelmed with thoughts.They were only destroyed when the doorbell rang.

He got his arse off the floor and walked over to the door.He opened the door,to see Adam.Adam seemed worried about something.

"Jonny,explain why I haven't seen you in 2 weeks.Can you explain to me why your arms are covered?It's 25 degrees outside. Show me?"Adam started to say before Marcus walked over to them.

"Hey!Why haven't you replied to anything?Seriously,I'm getting concerned!"Marcus pleaded. Jonny then slammed the door on their faces.

He walked over to the bathroom and cut again.He felt something.He felt bad for shutting everyone out of his life.He wanted to die.He sat on the bathroom floor,crying,for around 5 hours,when his phone rang.

He didn't want it to be Adam or Marcus.No!It was Horrible Grandma.Being a horrible bitch.Swearing and threatening him to never allow him anywhere because of who he was. Jonny started to scream and said he would not be here by tomorrow.She didn't care!The bastard!

So he went to sleep and planned to die.

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