That Perfect Moment (COMPLETED)

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( len's pov : )
tulala akong nakatingin sa kisame ng aking kwarto habing dinadama ng paulit ulit na pagpunit ng aking puso

Unti unting kusang pumatak ang aking manga luha sa bawat sakit na aking nararamdaman sa tuwing naaaalala ko mula ang pangyayaring yaon kanina

I was dumbfounded that moment , i felt like i was betrayed even if i saw franz is not kissing her back but still! Bakit nya pa ako niligawan kung simpleng halik lamang ay hindi nya pa maiwasan

He told me , again and again not break his heart , na wag sya paasahin pero bat ganon? Porke ba hindi ko sinabi sa kanya ang mga parehong kataga na galing sa kanyang bibig ay may karapatan na sya saktan ako?

That's just wrong! How can he do these to me?! May mali ba ako? Did i really just assumed na kaya nya ako niligawan kasi mahal nya ako or he just playing with my feelings ?!

Gulong gulo na ako , pagod na pagod narin ako maiwan , kala nya ba sya lang ang takot masaktan? Kala nya ba sya lang ung may karapatan ingatan just because he got through worst? For god's sake im a human too! Nasasaktan din ako!

Marahas kung pinunasan ang luha ko nang may biglang kumatok sa pintuan ng aking apartment

I walked towards the door with my eyes blood shot because of crying and opened it harshly

And there i saw the man that delivered me so much pain just hours ago

"Le---.." bago pa man sya makapag salita ay ibinagsak ko ang aking pintuan at ini lock iyon

I can't face him yet , not now , it just hurts so much , so much that it feels so hard to breathe

Lugo Lugo akong naglakad pabalik sa aking kwarto at inihagis ko ang aking sarili sa aking higaan

Oh god why me? Deserve ko ba na masaktan ng ganto? Deserve ko ba na makita ang ganong bagay? , I know , i know i need explanation but i can't bring my self to see him right now

I can bare my self to see his lips that got tainted by that snake , it hurts so much that i couldn't even bare to hear his voice

I know one day kakayanin ko din syang harapin , in the right moment , i would ask him to tell me the truth but i can't right now

Ramdam ko ang pagkaubos ng lakas na may roon ako , i fell like im the pit of hell where my heart hurts so bad

It feels as if its getting stabbed again and again and again and all i can do is feel all those pain

Hindi ko kayang pigilan ang mga palasong kusang tumutuhog sa aking puso

Its just been a week but then why? I thought ok na kami , kala ko mag tutuloy tuloy na , na masaya kami pero aka ko lang pala yon

My phone vibrated and so i looked at who the caller is and its him
The name FRANZ dancing on my screen , kaagad kong pinatay ang tawag at itinapon ang aking telepono

Mariin ko na lamang piniki ang aking mga mata

Pagtapos ng ilang minuto namulat mula ako nang narinig ko muli ang telepono kong nag v vibrate

I took it and expected franz's name once more but its not , its my aunt sherry , she lives at Singapore and its once in a blue moon whenever she calls

" Hello tita?"
My voice is still shaking a bit but im trying to do my best to sound normal
" Len , its your grandma "
Pawang nabigla ang aking puso nang bangitin ni tita ang lola
" Im all ears tita , what's wrong? May nangyare ba kay lola ? Is she having attacks again?!"
Tuluyan nang tumulo ang aking mga luha nang dahil sa pag aalala , i love my grandma so much , she was there when mom and dad left me