That Perfect Moment (COMPLETED)

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( len's pov: )

I looked at him , in his eyes , pleading for my attention and time

I took another glass and drank it straight before facing him with a strong emotion in my eyes
" Let's not talk here , follow me "

I stood up in the stoll and looked at him , kitang kita ko ang kaba sa kanyang mga mata na oawa bang nag susumamo na akoy manatili sa kanyang harapan

Kusa nalamang akong tumalikod at nauna nang naglakad dahil sa hindi ko na kinaya ang kanya mga pag tingin

I can't believe these man is here just to find me , and because of that i really do think he deserves a chance to be heard out

Tuluyan na kaming naka labas sa tipon ng mga tao at nag tungo sa balcony ng lugar kung saan ipinag dadaos ang ball

Marahan akong sumadal sa haligi at dumunga sa ilaw ng mga naglalakihang gusali " you can talk now "

I felt my heart ache as he walked closer to me , i felt that as if im seeing him again being taken away from me

" Len , that day , at vons party , im sorry kung nasaktan ko ang damdamin mo , hindi ko sinasadya ang nagyari at walang katotohanan sa mga iniisip mo

That girl , Charlotte was my close friend and that momen when you saw her kissing me , nagulat din ako sa ginawa nya

I was angry len, i was so mad"

I looked at him with pain in my eyes while doing my best to stop flowing out of my eyes " why are you angry? Why are you mad?
Is it because nakita ko? Is its because nahuli kita?

Kung hindi ko ba nakita un hindi ka magagalit Franz? Kung wala ba ako sa pintuan nun hahayaan mo lang syang humalik sayo?

How could you not atleast dodge her?!   How could you not atleast cover your lips huh?!

It hurts franz , ikaw na mismo nag sabi sakin na wag kitang sasaktan kita , that your scared of being cheated with but what?! , Bakit ako ung nasasaktan ngayon franz ? Bakit ako ung nahihirapan?

I trusted you with my everything but what?! You destroyed that trust "

I tears slowly fell down from my eyes and his , were looking at each other with pain , with anger

" Len , im begging you , give me one more chance, hindi sinasadya ung nangyare, please i can't lose you

I love you so much and i will never love someone else than you , Please len just one more chance , i love you so much and you're my air that if you take your self away from me I wouldn't be able to breathe "

Franz kneeled down and took my hand while tears are still flowing out of his eye

Naiintindihan ko naman ung sitwasyon namin but it still hurts , so much , its like reaping my hart again and again

I looked at his kissable thin lips , akin yan eh , bakit mo pinapayagan ung iba kunin yan?

Napa luhod nalamang din ako at hinawakan ang isa nya pang kamay , i already have decided  to stay here in Singapore and with these , with him , I don't think i could focus on my studying at all

I leaned closer and hugged him tightly because these might be the last hug i can ever give to him " im sorry franz , i love you too pero I don't think love will be enough for the both of us , I don't think can get us together away from reality

I actually have decided to leave Philippines and i don't think i can still go back in that country , im sorry"

I pulled my self away from and and saw those devastated eyes looking at me while his hands restlessly trying to wipe his tears away

Pa ulit ulit , pa ulit ulit na pawang pinupunit , pawag sinasaksak , pawang dinudurog and puso ko habang nakikita ko ang kanyang mga mata

Hindi ko na kinaya at tinaka kong tumayo para tumakbo ngunit inabot nya ang aking kamay at hinawakan ito nang ma higpit

" Wala na ba t-talaga? Di na ba natin maayos to?!

I-if you want to study here i can make dad process my papers para makalipat din ako dito , and if you don't want that , we can have long distance relationship , i bare with it , ill even visit you monthly

We'll make it work , ill do my best to make it work , ill do everything for you , kahit ano please len don't leave me , please don't give up on me im begging you

Lahat lahat ibibigay ko just let me stay in your life , you love me naman diba? Mahal moko diba? Baka naman ma work out pa natin to , len just one more chance , im begging you "

Bahagyang tumigil ang lahat at pawang may isang sinulid ang naputil sa aking isipa na syang nag udyok sa akin upang iwasiwas ang aking kamay upang tanggalin ang kamay nyang naka kapit sa akin

Nang natangal na ang kanyang pagkakapit ay pawang may sariling utak ang aking mga paa at kusang tumakbo papalayo sa balkonaheng iyon

I ran away from that place and took the car that aunt gave me these morning

I drove with my windows open letting it ruin my hair and dry my tears away

Habang nag mamaneho ay may nadaanan akong bar na napag disisyonan kong tigilan at pumasok

Lets be wasted tonight , I think that all i can do ,can't i ?

Mali ba ung ginawa ko? Mali ba na mas pinili ko ang pamilya ko over my happiness , over love?

If i were to continue these relationship mawawalan na ako ng oras para kay lola , ma d destruct ako sa pag aaral ko ang worst i might not even be able to reach my goals because of these man

Or am i just making excuses for my self again because i can't accept that im wrong

Marahas akong pumasok sa bar at agad agad nag order ng isang case ng inumin habang tumutulo ang aking mga luha

" There's a private room here ma'am that you might want? We will bring your drink in there as well "

I looked at the water and nod at him , letting him lead me to that room he's saying

I sat there waiting for my drinks staring at nothing thinking about his face that makes my heart breaks a million times

"Pano kaya pag nakahanap sya ng mas better sakin?" I talked to the thin air and laughed bitterly while looking at the alcohol bottle in front of me that the waiter just delevered

I took one bottle and Chugged the alcohol down to my throat like fire writing its name on it

" One day , ill take you back Franz  Vexian! I swear to all the beers in these world! "

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