Choices

Lost (Tobias)

A/N- okay, just because I hate it when books aren't updated in ages and then it is and you can't remember what happened so the new chapter makes no sense, I am going to give you a quick re-cap before the chapter:

-Tris' mother, Natalie, sent Tris over to Erudite on Choosing Day to save Abnegation from the war plans she found

- On Choosing Day, Tris chose Erudite and Caleb chose Candor

- Tris is at Erudite, for the beginning of Initiation

-Without knowing that Tris has been sent, Tobias leaves Dauntless to save the Abnegation because he feels like he owes them for who he has become

All good? Okay, I hope you are having a fantastic 2015 and...

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Tobias

The night is cold and I don't know what to do. I mean, I have a plan, obviously. The problem is that I'm having trouble sticking to this plan. I probably should have thought about this in more detail.

My plan is to...make a plan.

Yes. It is. Okay, so how do I go about following this plan? I feel panic pinching at my heart and my breathing quickens as I realise how bad this situation is.

I just left Dauntless. I need to save Abnegation. I could turn back now, and no one would know. But, deep down inside of me, I know that I cannot do that.

I set my lips in a hard line and keep walking.

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My steps are slow with lack of energy, and I need to stop. The sun in rising over the Hub somewhere in front of me, and there is a last hint of the moon behind the Hancock building which I walk away from. It's early, maybe five am, and I know I need to rest so that I can think strateigically and know what I will do when I get there.
I walk away from the road and find a ditch to spend a few hours in.
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I awake to the sound an Amity truck and laughter. I wearily watch it dwindle down the road and disappear before gathering my things together and surveying my surroundings. I seem to be in the middle of nowhere. All I know is that I am not a Dauntless, and I relax a tiny bit at this thought.
The road lies in front of me, but continues down my left for a long as I can see. The fence is some distance behind me, and I came down the road from my right. I decide I need to keep walking in that direction.

First though, I think, I need to figure out what to do.

I'm going to need back up, that's for sure. I will not stoop to Jeannine's level and wipe out her whole faction, no. First, I will reach out to Abnegation's government. Unfortuately, I have some links there because of my father, so I am not cometely stranded. However, Abnegation will not know how to, or be able to fight. I alone cannot teach a whole faction to fight. Maybe you won't need to fight, I think. Maybe there will be some other way.

I doubt it, though.