Ticci toby X reader

2015

We, did it.well I did it, clockwork broke up with toby...I couldn't believe her eyes when she heard toby confess his feelings about her.
"Clocky, to uh tell you the truth...I find you like a guy friend...like as one of the guys."
"Okay...cool, I guess. So this is how it's gonna be? Me, alone as a scone huh?" Toby didn't respond but only replied with an I'm sorry and left feeling free and happy!
"Oh my god!!! I never felt so fucking freeee!! No more random killing dates! No more random make outs in her room! No more "I always want to be around you" feeling!! Freedom!!" He said as he through his hatchets at a tree multiple times. Just watching him stumble and laugh in joy makes me wanna join him. But seeing my sister as a mess hurts me as much as I wanna go outside. For 2 weeks she has been depressed.
"Oh, toby, why?? WHY?" Natalie sobbed into my pillow. Seeing her cry made me lighten up a bit, at least toby is happy and Natalie can actually focus on her missions. She has missed over 5 missions and I had to save her ass by doing all of them in a one month period. Jesus, is she going to soak her tears in my pillow forever crying 'toby. Toby.toby'? I sleep on that sweet pile of feathers! I snatch my pillow away from her and tell her.
"Natie, he's just a boy get over it, I never had a boyfriend and I'm already thinking of living by myself with the stray cat out in the woods."
"You don't understand how heartbreaking it is for me!"she continued to sob onto her sweatshirt.
"Well, you don't know how-"
"SHUT UP! JUST SHUT UP! NO YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND!!" Anger started to boil in me. She didn't know how fucking sad I was when she left me with ma and dad...she didn't know...she wasn't there for me when I got hurt from dad's drunken rages, she wasn't there to help me care for Sally when she was being difficult. My heart literally shattered when she left me behind...
"WHY DONT YOU LISTEN TO ME?" The loud self came out, splitting out mean words, cuss words and long words in the middle on my sentences. She obviously didn't know how hurt I was when she left. "SURE, I WAS YOUNG. BUT THAT DOESNT MEAN ILL FORGIVE YOU FOR WHAT YOU DoNE TO mE ESPECIALLY!!" My eyes started leaking black liquid, and it produced more as I yelled. The more I yelled the more pain I brought out, the more pain that is brought out...the more the ink like fluid oozed out my tear ducts, ears and mouth. I could still hear her talk back but all I could hear is for me to shut up. I didn't want to fucking shut up, I'm tired of her shit. He left me with dad and ma. Dad who had drunken rages and mom was a once in a while pot head. Ma wasn't like that when Natalie was there.but when she left, ma always left the house. Dad would always sleep. I would always have to cook for myself and Sally when they were off doing their things. I was too short at the time and I had to use a stool or a shake to actually cool on the stove. "YOU KNOW WHAT? " I paused for a second to calm down and Natalie was looking at me like I just slapped her face.
"W-what."
"I Can't believe we are sisters..." Her eyes being flooded with tears, she was gonna cry again"you never sent me things, I had a long depressing period and last of all, it like you never really cared about me. All you really did is stayed out of everything, I kept seeing you near the house when dad was screaming and mom being a bitch to me...I want to believe that you're the sister I once knew...all you are now...is a basic bitch." Her eyes opened wide, her mouth agape and her hair falling over her face. I walked out the room to go outside. I needed to go out side. It's to loud in here. Even though it's dead silent.

"happy new year...You bitchy White girl..."