Ticci toby X reader

My darling

I can see her clearly in the beam of the flashlight. I call out to her and she looks in my direction. I can't help but smile when I see her. Even though she looks dirty and has matted hair under that hood, she has always been the one to listen to me. But now, looking at back these past few months, she wasn't the same girl from when I first met her. She lost her spunk, her jumpy attitude, her sparkling eyes. Her eyes grew dull and old. I want to help her. But I have to do that mission and finish it. It would be horrible if she died. But now I can't handle the stress of her wanting to die because of the futile attempts to stay alive.

There's no escaping it is there.

I have to kill her for myself to live.

I can't wallow in my feelings any longer. If I do I will die. There is no escaping it.

"T-Toby, you got my note? I-I-I....". Just watching her tear up makes me wanna run.

"It's okay. I'm here."
"Then, you know what I want you to do right?"
"Yeah....it's gonna hurt you more than it will hurt me...."

"What?"

"I never loved you in the first place..."

It was all a lie.