Different J.G

03

Jack Gilinsky
Sunday, July 12th
11:16 pm

"He wasn't a bad person, he was just a 15-year-old boy who was influenced by society. It happens to everyone and I couldn't really blame him for that. But he should've known better. I like to think I'm an understanding person and if he was honest with me in the first place, I would've understood," Rose says in an angelic voice, looking between Savana and the audience while covering for my past mistakes

"Anyways that's the story of my first boyfriend. He taught me lessons and I've bettered myself thanks to him. I don't even know if he's actually watching this but he probably will. I'm sorry,"

Although she was looking into the camera, it felt like she was looking into my eyes. I can't believe she actually told everyone that story.

"Seriously man? How many times are you gonna watch her interview?" Johnson says shaking his head, walking into my room looking for something

"I can't help it, dude, I can't believe I did that to her back then," I say looking down in disappointment

Disappointed in my own past actions

I've grown up from my mistakes and I've realized what I've done. I was just a horny teenager who focused on ass and tits instead of personality. I fell off Alyssa's personality at the time. I obviously thought she was beautiful but her pictures made her look completely different than how she looked in real life.

I was too worried about my image and reputation to care about how much I'd hurt her. Plus I lied and led her on. After we broke up, we became somewhat friends with benefits where we'd just flirt 24/7.

"Look G, you were just a kid and yeah it was wrong of you but it is what it is and you can't change the past," Johnson says picking up the headphones I borrowed from him

"I know I know, I just hate that she told everyone that story. what happens when people find out I'm her ex? Do you know how bad that'll make us look?" I ran my hands through my hair, pulling on it ever so slightly.

"How would people find out? You guys don't even have any pictures together," J says in confusion, cocking his head to the side with a slightly rude tone

I don't blame him for being harsh about this topic. Johnson and Alyssa were really close. Alyssa had her way when it came to my friends. They loved everything about her. But when Alyssa found out I lied to her, she cut everyone off.

The boys were more than furious with me but I couldn't change the past

"I know, but still-" I start but Johnson cuts me off

"You know what? why don't you stop worrying about your image and focus on the girl you damaged. You tore her down and she rebuilt herself into something different. If you ever run into her again, I hope she never forgives you," He says in a calm yet harsh tone. I simply stare up at him with shock all over my face.

I look down and release a sigh, putting my head into my hands

"Hey man, I didn't mean to be so rude, it's just that Alyssa was that amazing girl who everyone loved. She was like a little sister to me and the boys but you and Sammy messed it up for all of us. If you do see her again though, don't let history repeat itself," Johnson says patting my shoulder before exiting the room.

5:53 pm

"She was literally biting it dude, I had to bite my lip to stop myself from screaming in pain," Nate says wincing at the memory of this girl who gave the worst blow job. All the boys including myself burst out laughing before sipping on our drinks.