Through The Lens

Feelings and Emotions

Apryl's POV

It was lunch at school and I was sat at the lonesome table drawing some sketches of my surroundings, it was really beautiful, well you know once you subtract the garbage from the ground and the occasional roaches.

"So you couldn't find anything else to draw but this hell hole of a jail." I heard my friend Laine's voice say from behind me.

"Its really pretty blocking out its liabilities." I chuckled.

"Ugh well okay, I'm heading over to Aaiden so if you need me I'm there okay."

"Cool."

I was watching my friend walk away from me and towards Aaiden, her boyfriend.I never liked him for her because he always smiles and winks at every girl he sees that has big boobs or a butt. He even did it to me once.

But I never told Laine, cause it would really hurt her so I just kept it to myself.

I brushed off the thought of how disgusting Aaiden is and focused my attention on my new camera my older sister had bought me for my birthday. I was turning the camera back and forth too see if I could find a good picture when I noticed that Tyler Matthews - school bad boy and Melanie Chase - his girlfriend looked as though they were in a heated argument.

I continued to watch as Tyler waved her off and walked away in the opposite direction (my direction). So I then diverted my camera so that it would seem like I was spying on him or something, I heard a familiar voice.

"Hey, Apryl right?"

Tyler Matthews knows I exist...

"Yeah that's me. Can I help you with something?" I replied noticing how I sounded completely different. It was cringe-worthy.

"Ok yeah. See, I'm kinda flunking in Biology and Ms. Naomi recommended you to help me out." He flicked his head to the left, his hair following effortlessly to his movement.

"Sure, no problem." I returned, my tone lacking much confidence. He sent a smile my way, "Ok then great thanks alot."

When he turned to walk away I felt somewhat bad that he only wanted me for my brains but there was no surprise there. That was his thing, what he was known for. He stopped walking for a moment, and turned to face me.

"Oh I almost forgot, there's a party at my house next Saturday and well ..." He paused and handed me an envelop, "You're inviting me ?" Shock evident in my voice.

He snickered, "Yeah you should come, you'll enjoy it." And with that he left.

I stood there for a little, watching his walk away while my mind pondered on something crazy. Maybe..

I should actually go.

~ ~ ~

"Ew, I cannot believe this food today its awful." Laine remarked at the food infront of her while making faces.

I giggled at her actions, "Which is why I brought my own food."

"Ok, a PB with jelly on whole wheat is not food." "Sure it isn't " I rolled my eyes with a cocky smile as I watched my best friend play with her disgusting cafeteria food.

"I'm gonna head to the bathroom really quickly be right back."

"Cool." She replied still glaring at her lunch.

I was headed to the bathroom when someone grabbed me by the wrist and pulled me into them.
I looked up, my heart stammering in my chest.

"Aaiden what the hell!" I shouted while I pulled away from him.

"Hey, miss me?" He cockily asked. "You are aware that you're dating my best friend right." I tried to break free from his grip but failed, my petite body losing energy against his touch.

He came closer and closer towards me until I was against the filthy school walls then whispered in my ear , "I want you."

He started then to kiss my neck and I became weak, with what I don't know. He laid kisses on my jawline then back to neck while his hands roamed my thigh, pressing his body against mine.

I pushed the demon off me and ran the little distance to get to the bathroom.

After I was finished I stood in front the mirror talking to myself. What if anyone had seen us?
No, I said, shaking my head as if trying to convince myself. Noone ever cames to this side of school at lunch.

Right?

So much questions flooded my mind and I couldn't comprehend all of them. I rubbed my temples in desperation, trying to keep my mind intact.

Why did I enjoy it when I shouldn't? I don't know. Do I tell Laine and risk ruining our whole friendship?I don't know that either.

All I had was a bunch of 'I dont know's' and I internally groaned. But one question came across my mind, to which I definitely knew the answer to,

Am I a bad person for doing what I did?

Yes. There was no doubt about it.

~ ~ ~

"Yup then he invited me to his party next Saturday." I finished telling Laine the conversation Matthews and I had earlier since she was spending the night over.

"This is great now we can go together and have the most fantabulous time ever." She squealed in such a high pitched tone that I slightly felt a headache coming on.

"Yeah, no I don't think I'm going." Her head craned to look over at me, the corner of her lips slightly turned down, "What why?"

"I just, I don't know." I was cut off by the music from her phone, she fiddled with the plastic for a bit then she answered.

"Oh hey, sup Aaiden." Her face lit up when she answered the call then then it filled with hurt and anger after about a minute of listening to the person on the other end.

She ended the call and flopped on my bed, water quickly filling in her eyes, "Aaiden just dumped me."

"What? Why? How?" She didn't respond but placed her head on my bed, I could hear her soft sulks and I felt the anger building inside of me. So, I grabbed her phone and redialed his number.

After a few rings, his voice was apparent on the other end, "Laine, I told you it's-" I cut him off, not wanting to hear his bullshit at the moment,  "Dude why the fuck did you dump her. That girl has been nothing but good to you and you just dumped her like that?"

He paused for moment, clearly recognising that this wasn't his current ex-girlfriend, "So you didn't hear me clearly then I told you I want you."

I was about to send a few choice words his way but he hung up, and I started to feel so guilty. I went over to my best friend and tried to comfort her but she was a tough one and wasn't about to let some boy get her down, even though the puffiness under her eyes said otherwise.

She shook her head and sat up, "No, I refuse to cry over him." She muttered. I then realised it wasn't me that she was talking to, but herself. So I said nothing, merely watching her movements.

I contemplated on whether or not to tell her that I basically made out with her boyfriend but I decided not to. It would just be too much to handle and it would break her heart.

After about two hours Laine dozed off into sleep but I couldn't sleep when all I was studying was Aaiden's words, that seemed to put itself on replay in my head. It was driving me crazy.

I want you.  I want you.

I WANT YOU!