At sa wakas ay dumating na talaga ang araw na kinakatakutan ko. Remember the auction we did at the party? Eto na iyon.
And as much as i want to leave JM with mom and dad ay hindi ko kaya. Lalo na at hindi pako sigurado kung kailan ako makakauwi sa spain.
I contacted a friend of mine and told her na magiistay kami sa pilipinas. And she suggested na sa kabilang unit nalang kami ng condo kung saan siya nakatira. I bought the unit a week ago. Kompleto narin ang mga gagamitin namin doon. At isasabay nalang namin ni JM ang ibang gamit at laruan niya.
Naging emotional naman si mom at dad ng nasa grounds na kami. This is the first time na mawawalay sa kanila ang apo ng matagal.
Now, I'm looking at JM while he was just casually playing on his chair. May table naman kaya okay lang sa kanyang maglaro.
While he was playing ay sinubukan kong tawagan ang taong alam kong makakatulong sa akin. I clicked Cadens number and faced time him.
Alam kong advance ng 6 hours ang oras nila sa amin. I looked up and saw that it was already 4:00 in the afternoon here kaya naman ay alas diyes na siguro ng gabi doon.
At tama nga ako. He answered it pero hindi ko masyado maanig ang mukha niya. Nevertheless i started talking.
"Babalik na ako diyan. And i hope we could talk when i get there. I need to tell you something very imoortant." He didn't speak at all kaya naman inayos ko ang anggulo ng camera ko.
"Hey you there?" At ganoon nalang ang pagtigil ng tibok ng puso ko when i saw the same face with a blonde hair.
Nahigit ko ang hininga. Mabilis kong pinatay ang tawag at tinapon ang cellphone sa kabilang upuan. JM looked at me with confused eyes.
"You okay, mama?" Tumango naman ako.
I held my chest part. I tried not to squill but huli na ang lahat. I shouted like a madwoman. Now my son looked at me like i was some crazy lady.
"I thought you were okay?" Kunot noo niyang saad. Now he really looked like his father.
"Yes, I'm fine, anak. Just wanted to do that." He shrugged saka tumayo at dumiretso Kung nasaan yung attendant. My son said something bago bumalik sa upuan niya.
Lumapit ako dito at hinaplos ang malambot na buhok.
"What did you ask for, baby?" He pointed the attendant kaya naman napalingon ako.
I saw her bringing chocolate bars. Napailing nalang ako. Baka masira ang ngipin nito.
I thanked the attendant. Nilapag niya naman ang mga tsokolate sa lamesa and JM started eating.
I looked at his Ipad and saw him watching something. Kinuha ko ito at tiningnan. Nagulat pa ako ng makita kung ano ang pinapanuod niya.
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I looked at him and pointed his Ipad.
"Bakit ganito ang pinapanood mo, anak? You should have watched cars." He looked at me while he was busy peeling the chocolates wrapper. He rolled his cute little eyes at me. Naningkit naman agad ang mata ko.
"Mom, diba you told me that my father's a Engineer? I wanna be one too. Can i meet him when we go to tito caden?" My heart ached for my son.
Yes, hindi man niya nakita ang ama but hindi ko pinagkait sa kanya ang pagkatao nito. He sees his Dad in magazines and interview. Kadalasan din ay sa Youtube.
Imagine his surprise when he saw Caden.
"We'll try, anak. Kung hindi busy ang papa mo. We can." He nodded at my answe. Tila ba kumbinsido na siya sa sinabi ko.
He yawned. Lumapit ako sa kanya at kinandong siya. He nuzzled onto my neck saka siya mahimbing na nakatulog.
I smiled then i caressed his hair. Wala nakuha sa akin maliban sa mata. He's his father's carbon copy.
I sang him a lullaby. Narinig ko naman ang malalim niyang hininga. I called for a blanket and a pillow. Kaagad naman na binigay iyon. Pinahiga ko siya sa lap ko. I placed the pillow beside him para hindi siya mahulog. Saka ko siya kinumutan. I sighed while looking at my phone that's currently on the other side of the chair.
Istead i used his Ipad. Binuksan ko ito and browsed something. Again, after all the years. Heto na naman ako.
I opened my insta and typed his name. Agad namang sumalubong sa akin ang mga mukha niya. He has millions of followers. Sila naman lahat.
Nakafollow ako sa kanya with my son's dummy account. May bago siyang post it was just 3 minutes ago.
The picture was just a picture of his blue print and coffee.
I looked at the caption at napailing nalang ako sa naiisip. Masyado lang akog assuming! I'm just thinking about nonsense things!
His caption was " i saw the northern star again. My northern star."
Nandiyaan na naman yung assuming kong utak. There's nothing wrong naman. At tama nga, Andromeda is also a northern star.
But heck, marami din namang northern star. We have cassiopeia and Cepheus and Perseus.
Inis na nilapag ko ang Ipad saka naman lumingo sa labas ng bintana. I'm really tired of assuming things.
Noon pa man sa mga post niya na may kinalaman sa mga bituin. Maybe, he really loved astronomy.
Maybe.
