To Be So Lonely

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description: the one where Harry gets lonely in Japan.

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Harry has been in Japan for two weeks now

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Harry has been in Japan for two weeks now. He didn't intend to stay for two weeks, and more. But he doesn't plan on leaving japan anytime soon. He decided that halfway through the first week.

Everyday he gets up around eight, goes to the cafe down the street and gets his usual, looking at the vinyls while waiting for his order. Once done he sits in his usual spot, pulling out a book and reading while eating, or writing in his journal. Then he walks around, going to different markets.

He's found himself in the studio a few times as well, and he hangs out with friends as much as possible, creating new ones on the way.

But he still feels lonely.

He's around his friends majority of the afternoon and into the night, then he comes back to his temporary residence and goes to bed lonely. No one to talk to about his day out, the things he saw, the new ideas for songs, and no one for him to experience his trip with him c

He often finds himself daydreaming about y/n. When he goes out and finds romantic spots he wonders if she would like it, or when he tries anything new he wonders if she would try it. He'll find jewelry he thinks would look amazing for her. He even picked up a little ring for her.

He just misses her.

But he's been ignoring her. He didn't tell her he had left the country. He only told his mum and Jeff. He's not sure why he didn't tell her. It's supposed to go back to how it was right?

Wrong

The feelings are still there, hell, Harry even thinks they are deeper now. He still loves her with all his heart. He has no resentment for her because she was the one who broke it off. He knows why she did it. For him, and for her.

He may have been gone from the house more often that not, but he saw the sadness in her face. She didn't sleep with a calm face anymore, with her mouth slightly open, and no creases in her forehead. Now she slept with a frown on her face and her forehead creased, looking upset in her sleep even.

He was hurting her and it hurt him even more to know that.

She's his everything. Yet he was the one person dragging her down. Making her sad, and making her question her worth.

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