Indifferent

aftermath

26th December

1:32 a.m

After taking about more than 250 pictures I let my phone breathe and charge it.

I go to the pantry to get some marshmallows to make s'mores. When I walk out the west wing I see the fire already blazing heat and a log of wood infront of it with some sticks by the one sitting there all alone.

I dont see who so because of the heavy fog or actually smog. I walk closer until I see Sylas sitting there.

"Hey sis"
"Hi hoe"
"I dont wanna laugh anymore"
"I dont wanna breathe anymore"
"You cant just leave me here with poisoning Penelope and Rambunctious rick."
"Who ever said I was gonna leave?"
"U did."
"I'd go if you do."
"I'm leaving for college."
"I know. But your senior year isnt supposed to end until 8 months."
"I know but they said they'd just take an sat exam and if I pass from more than 70% I'll go to cambridge. "

Silence

And then continuing that silence I hand him a few marshmallows and he gives me a stick.

We heat the marshmallows and eat them. In about 5 minutes he continues

"But I'll miss Genevieve. Like a lot. I mean the past few days with her like I was in heaven or some shit. And her smile....her fucking smile is the best and the purest shit I've ever seen, no offense. Her laugh makes me want to litter her neck with kisses and tell everyone she's MINE and only.....mine.
I dont wanna leave her but I know this long distance relationship won't work out. Well it will work out but she'll find someone better and like what if I get shit faced drunk and cheat on her with some random whore?" He expresses his feelings and I listen to him ever so quietly. Its like everything the air,the fire,the earth, the sky they were all listening to him witnessing his love and lust which will later turn into dust.

Hope is a fucked up thing.

"Aren't you gonna say something?" He asks angrily.

"I cant judge your thoughts, no one can."
"I'd let her."
"Hey after eating s'mores do you want to hang up Polaroids in my room?"
"What Polaroids?"
"The ones jas gave me on my birthday. "
"Ohhhh yeahhhhh"

He takes a sip of his beer which I'm going to smack in his face later and then says

"Let's do it."

2:14 a.m

After eating s'mores and me hitting him with the can of beer on his head we put out the fire and go to my room.

I take out the Polaroids from my side table's drawer. I give him the 53 Polaroids and he goes through them. His smile getting wider as he looks at one after the other.

"Ohhh remember this one!?" He says pointing at the picture." when we went to the river chenab for fishing and demitri fell of the edge of the boat as he thought he caught a "big fish" but it was actually a metal box someone threw in the river."
"Once he fell he caught the box rather than caring about his life. " I continue.
"He really is a dumbass."
"He actually thought there was going to be gold in it." And with this we burst into laughter rejoicing more moments every minute like it's our last.

"Fuckkkk that bitch actually thought those berry weren't poisonous because helen said they were." I say laughing like crazy with my crackhead brother referring to the time maneeha and helen had to get us fruits, that weren't poisonous.

"She got diarrhoea for a long ass time."
"Yeah yeah I know." I manage to say with trouble as the lack of air from laughing.

"Phew I think I was going to end up crying tonight but you made me laugh. You really are a pure soul."

" I adore you, you fucking bastard. Now dafa ho from my room."

"Seriously dafa ho!?" He says while laughing more and leaving my room.

I love insulting in urdu at points. I feel like it's one of the most fun languages after punjabi to curse in.

"Its 3:27 shittt" I say while looking at the clock.

I dont wanna sleep alone. Fuck you Sylas.

Just 30 more minutes I tell myself feeling as if the shadows might turn into monsters and eat me alive or worse take me to somewhere I cant see or even breathe.

Me
Jasim

I say into the speaker hoping he isnt mad I called so late.

Jas 🤦‍♀️
Yeah

His voice raspy af

Me
I'm scared

Jas 🤦‍♀️
Why

Me
Its 3 a.m

Jas 🤦‍♀️
U still believe in the story Sylas told you

Me
Ye-ah

Jas 🤦‍♀️
Do you want me to come over?

Me
No
It'll take you time and it'll be 4 probably by then.
Just stay on the phone with me

Jas🤦‍♀️
Ok baby

I try not to overthink baby thinking he's half asleep and already has lost more sense of everything then he actually doesnt have.

Me
So

Jas🤦‍♀️
So

Me
Umm

Jas🤦‍♀️
What

Me
Shit 30 minutes havent felt longer
No oh wait it does in maths tho

Jas🤦‍♀️
I dont have the energy to smile or laugh at the moment Rumysa

Me
Drink coffee

Jas🤦‍♀️
I'm trying to sleep here woman

Me
And I'm trying to stay sane here.

Jas🤦‍♀️
Who said you were sane

Me
No one
Fuck off
I didnt call your lonely ass to be annoyed and get a headache bastard

Jas🤦‍♀️
I like that your lonely

He trys to sing

Me
Lonely like me

I try too

Jas🤦‍♀️
I could be lonely with you

Me
I met you late night

Jas🤦‍♀️
At a party

Me
What time is it

Jas🤦‍♀️
That's not the lyric

Me
Its 3:50

Jas🤦‍♀️
That's not the lyric either

Me
I think I'll be fine now

Jas🤦‍♀️
It was a pleasure accompanying you

I can imagine him rolling his eyes

Me
Love you

Jas🤦‍♀️
Fucking bye

And with that we hang up at the same time.